would you bury me ?



ive been stuck onto my chemical romance a lot recently. i think im depressed. and it's not good. though i shared so much laughter with mubz and my girls, it's just not the same. and to make it worst, the arrival of the o level results are not comforting me any further, yet.

so scary but yet so looking forward. actually no, im totally not looking forward to getting my results. i feel like there's something inside me screaming and yelling at me that im not going to do as well as the people around me, in the effort to comfort me, think i am. i know my standards. and i know what's coming is reality. and reality bites hard in your butt.

*ouch* ):

but i got to live on and make it to the day when i get my results. it aint easy for me to cope. ive been hearing so much, felt so different, and sometimes been traumatised too. its practically haunting me. rahh, stop bugging me, you horror! im totally discouraged.

nevertheless, nabz was so sweet to choke some faith into me. i was brimming with pessimistic thoughts and i couldnt feel any hope left it me. in fact, i dont think there's any left in me. until nabz told me that she believes that i can. she told me to trust her. i didnt, in the first place. but i tried to take things for the better and trusted her. but i know i cant be extravagant. the cut runs deep if reality stings.

but oh wells, thanks a mill nabz. owe you one. (: love you loads.

so, cny eve i had to work. initially i thought i had that day off but mei hui told me that i'll be coming for work with her for half a day til 5.30pm only. but yea, mom was right. "that's your normal working hr what.." well yea, but the store closes for it's half day. hurhur. and i have to work along as well. not that it mattered so much. at least i got to hang out with my girls.. though susu was there with us, or with me more like, for just half an hr. sigh- so much for a reunion. ): but it's okay.. i totally understand her situation. and so does ayn's. (:

met the rest of the girls after work at wisma's level three. all of us got so excited when we saw each other's faces and went like, "OMG!! HEYY!!!!", so loudly that we turned heads to us. haha. well, it's been a longgg longgg time, my dear. LONG time.. <3!


MBS unite* - cept ayn. ): be there, the next time, aight girl! mwacks*

so first stop, taka. sat outside taka and cam-whored. (i shant elaborate on that). next, we had to send susu off because of some reasons she couldnt stay any longer. poor her. ): then met liyana at orchard mrt. and we went to taka (again) because fyra wanted to see someone. (: nyehehes. got enough of it and went on to far east to dig in! oooooh, sakura la, what else. nyahahas.

it's been so long since we last sat together and eat as a whole group. laughed and crapped and shared food across the table. ohh, so many memories. <3>

here's some of the pics that we took along the way;


this was taken at the top of the escalator. my cam's good! it's on a moving escalator btw. (:


and this, was taken at the reflection of that escalator we came down from. it was dirty! and my GOOD camera cannot outclear the clarity. HAHA. crap`


forest? no, nice background. wisma underpass. COOL STUFF. xD

of course, what is a girl without dolling up ? we went to the toilet and spent almost an hr in there. since there wasnt any soul in that closed far east plaza. kinda freaki but oh wells. (:


sizzling hot*


ultimate beauty (:


the foursome.

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my girlies and i* (now this mirror is so much better. nyahahas)

and of course, the final touches. (:


the best girls in my life. mwachs* :D

headed home and talked somemore in the train. we made a new friend. haha. caro's friend. i forgot the name. but yea, nice chap. haha.

so, yeah. and today, spent the whole afternoon at mubz's place practising the horn. and made his blog for him. do link him yea, guys. here it is. (: so cute la the URL. "just write my name" haha. (: crappy friend. so much for the laughters. crapped more than we practised. gosh, i hope we're ready for the performance. at least we've brief-ed through Abba Gold. hope that we dont screw Grease up. nyahahas.

good luck, USSBand for tmrw's performance! mwacks. love you all.

psst; mubz cooked/made spag bolognaise for me! woo hoo. it was spicy.. and gingery.. haha. not bad la. (: thanks mubz!

okay im out
`Bee.

- sometimes i wish you didnt missed me for our past..

im so afraid -`*



i heard the results are going to be out on 6th FEB! omg. can somebody tell me it's not THAT soon ?? mummyy... i cant do this. i cant take this. im so fucking scared. im so afraid. im so timid. suddenly this acts like one big phobea for me. the deepest fear for me, the darkest side of life is about to unreveal.. will i make it ?

..will i not make it ? ): please, not so soon..

when dee told me that her friend checked out the date at some net, i was like, "NOOOOOOOO!!!!" dont tell me death day is soo fast ? judgemental day so early ? my fate shown so soon ? i cant take this. and i burst out to tears. oh god, im really afraid. i cant stop crying. ive this sore feeling that i cant make it. tell me why. tell me is it true ? im such a big letdown. ):

*prays* let me get through this just once. please..

on a lighter note, i brought my baby back! but it still cant wash away the fear that's instilled in me about my results. im so damn afraid. so damn scared. its too late to regret. and so, now i fret. what do i do ? what do i do ? tell me please, i beg you..


myBABY*

anyways, ive washed, cleaned and did a little soaking for my baby. scrubbed and bathed her so gently. because it's all scratched and DENTED already. ): now my heart is even more painful. sigh- good things hardly come while the bad things come all the time.


myBABYand i*

..sorry, got nth more to blog.

`Bee.

the seasoned hair*

now that's how my hair looks like now. it's really not the same with the ones i took before because those are pictures straight after my haircut. i had to get used to living with short hair because it's been two years already and i really feel a little uncomfortable here and there. getting used to something is really aint easy.

..so, it took the minimum of two days for me to get used to this hairstyle. the wiggle-style. and it landed me with a much better "combination" with my face. i realised that the wiggle style, is a totally messy kind of look so i decided to give it a go and it look really much better when i just woke up from bed. and this was how i look like:


(spot the make up stains like my eyebrows and eyeliners from work. hahaha.. i didnt wipe off properly. was too tired, please!)

i guess this is pretty much better, aye ? indeeeed. if you dont think so, i do. and yea, that was self proclaiming. hahahaha. let's talk about work..

so far, so good for me now. work's been pretty much alright for me here and there. but sometimes i just feel really lazy to get up and go for work. honestly, i can snooze the alarm clock three times and rush at the fourth ring. well, for a late-night/nocturnal girl like me, it's obvious enough why it's so hard for me to get up for work on morning shifts. hurhur.

but still, all's fine. i'd prefer the afternoon shift actually. i get to get up a little later (only to get scolded by the mother for that) and go home at night. not as if i enjoy the crampy bus/mrt rides back home, but it's the ambience that im comfortable in. i love the night. it's so serene.. so perfect. and if i've got that special someone*, it'll be soo perfectly romantically serene. -dreams away.. well well well..

- let bygones be bygones* rmb rool, breathe the new air in. throw bad air away. NO GOOD! -sigh.

anyways, i'll be doing the extended hour shift tomorrow. as in, today.. i dont know if i've got company because nana's not working. naQ will be doing the mid-shift, ayn im not so sure, meyaa has her azan, qah's working i think. [but she's got hussain i think] and yea.. should be meeting ameer tmrw too. at yew tee that is. hahaha. he misses me! lol. i miss you too, bro. let's catch up on things on our way home, aye ? (:

sometimes it's really good to have someone, whom you can relate to, living so close to you like, across the road. i've got three good friends living near me as in, really near. they're emy, ema and ameer. and of course, my bestie who lives pretty further down the street. i think im lucky.. no, i am lucky. <3!




im still wacko when im at work okay. work deprives me of nothing but freedom to wander around aimlessly. hahahhaa. im still fun! and and.. perky! ..and.. and.. erms.. im still me. so dont worry people, im cool. nurool's only on a different outlook. inwards, im still that girl who craps and laughs with tears of sorrow at the same time. (: no worries, guys! esp nuyul. haha. (sanggup sei tules testi "-i want the old nurool back!" hehe..)

okay folks, i got to run to my bed now. it's 10 kms far now. and i better run fast. i might sleep on the way.. (i told you im still me. xD)

with lots of bee kisses~
`Bee.

- tell me why are you still on my mind even when ive promised myself to give me another chance for a better life ? your face haunts me and i dont want to think about you.. at all.

the wind of change...


the long hair times.. (:

it's been two years that i grew on my long-est hair and two years is enough. more than enough, in fact. i cant stand any longer hair than that, honest! my hair's falling and my scalp's "clearing" it's way and gave me bald spots. eww. please, i need my beauty as for now til i get married. hurhur. so, my new hair was cut in conjuction with the new breath of life that i want to breathe in.

"throw out the bad air and suck in new ones." -ms tan.



TA-DA* so how issit ? some people said i look totally different. well what's your opinion ? for me, im loving it la. most people said that i look better with short tresses. some people said my longer hair was nicer. i guess most people dont know that i've never had such long hair before because i used to be really rowdy and pretty much tomboyish. so yeah, im back to the old times! no more bugging me to keep long hair, aight ? im loving it, para pap pap paa.. (:

went to work this morning with my fresh new hair style and peter gave me a "shocked" look. haha. and i totally knew what he was shocked for. but after a while, he nodded and gave me a warm smile. awwww.. yes i know. peter (from mondo) is really nice la. he studied hairstyling overseas and for him to smile at my hairstyle is considered a level up already. which is why im loving my hair even more!

but i named my hairstyle, the wiggle-style. that's because to get it into the style i want, i've got to shake my head the way a dog/cat/any other animal wiggle themselves rid the dirt of their body. when ive wiggled, then i'd rummage my hair back in position and, im done! no need the use of comb. it's totally messy style. the pictures that you saw aint exactly what it's like now. those are taken right after i cut my hair, so it's pretty much virgin.

i broke the virgin a little and i guess it's nicer this way. "whoa, sekali tengok macam itu orang "cool" punya ah. rambot messy messy itu maciam.."-kenji. haha. orang "cool" punya ? what was he thinking ? lol thanks, ken. but mei hui reckoned that my longer tresses were prettier. well, i'd pass on that idea. i love my rocking hair! (:

and so, let's recap a little bit here and there. since it's been pretty some time since i last updated. let me see..

so, last thursday was cool. had dee with me at work. she was in the afternoon shift and showed her around to get her familiarised with things. work was fine. nothing much. not many customers. but still okay. friday, worked for half day only. went back to band for practise. loyal band member okay! *beams. haha. so band was fine. im so rusty in my own instrument! oh gosh. but met a new friend. okay, two in fact. we've got xing tong and caleb to join our Istana performance. cool (: welcome, you guys! french horn rocks <3!

saturday, i dont know what happened and got the news that both xing tong (fuhua band) and caleb (yuang ching band) couldnt join us for the performance. there was some friction back in fuhua's side and as for caleb, ms tan said he's not ready yet. so yeah. then, after band headed down to gerard's birthday gathering. pretty cool la. but not so happening. gerard and "muthu" did some short play with their guitars. and it was cool. heh.

sunday. slept over at aunt rina's place.. (from saturday, la) and woke up to melissa's super loud voice. (of course..) then showered and helped out with nenek's 68th birthday mini celebration. (: cute la my nenek. mwacks. things ended. and after that, WENT TO HAVE A HAIRCUT! ..like, finally! ahha. and im loving it! mwacks. hugs. wheeeeee.

monday-today. work was pretty okay. was on the same shift with dee. she's at isetan scotts for today. poor her, everyday she'll be skipping from wisma and scotts for this week. i dont know about next week though. haha, enjoy that, bestie! so yeah, was on morning shift and went ta work together of course. dee was mad la that im late. because she thinks that, boarding 190 at 8.45am is too late to reach town by 9.30. "tak sempat la nurool.. tak sempat. kau ni. betol tak sempatt.." -dee.

of course, thats my girlfriend for you. oh wells. we reached town at 9.25AM and we're not SO late afterall, dee. hurhur. but when we met in the morning, dee was like, "did you really cut your hair ?" she didnt believed still la that i snipped my hair off. well now you saw it! (: my hair rocks my butts, boobs and socks! wheeeee.

so, of course, when there's digicam, no matter how ugly we look in the morning, we just had to pose for the camera. it's just a thing that's so irrisistable la. so we had to take. and..



..you see what i mean ? yes. morning faces. thanks to the urge of smiling at the sight of the camera la. hurhur. you can split a girl with everything else but you cant split a girl with her looks and her vanity.. which includes, the camera.. (:

and tmrw's the afternoon shift for me. gna meet nana for dinner! LIKE FINALLY NANA IS WORKING. she's been slacking at home and saving on "transport fares" too much already. get your butt cracking nana! im soooo gna tell you so many stuffs. yeays.

and of course, im looking forward to the cam-whoring session with my girl in the storeroom! if only mei hui's working tmrw. we can cam whore together too! i havent got a picture of her since i worked there which is nearing a month already. oh wells.. im off for now. turra!

`Bee.

-sometimes letting go just need a lot of courage. thank god, ive got them in my spare compartments. breaking down aint easy..

littleMISSworkingGIRL` (:

yay yay. dee's gna join me for two days. hah! thursday and friday (half day only) at work. im gna have company~! and she's my bestfriend! ohh, and thanks to mei hui that she got this "opportunity". nyehehe. love you mei hui! (if youre ever gna read this, i love you more!) <33*

SO, yesterday was.. how do i say ? i guess it was okay. oh yea! i bought something for farhan's birthday. i dont know if it's good but i hope he'll like it. i told him i'll buy his gift after my pay but what the hell, i bought it anyway. and now, im farking broke. LOL. ..and mei hui told me that for this month, im going to get my pay somewhere around the 10th to 20th of FEB.

..you think im cool with it ? THINK AGAIN! i cant believe this. the reason was that the office will "count" our pay after chinese new year. HELLO, i'll miss all the shopping offers/promotion/sale/whatever! noooo. sigh, it's okay, i guess.

so i dont care. i'll try not to. as long as nana is still working with me, with dee, naq and ain of course, i'll still be able to keep calm. breathe inn~~ breathe outt~~ BUT, today nana is not working! raaah` that lazy bummer. .."nak save duit tambang la. belom gaji. kite da adult fare ni!" was her excuse. INDEEEEEED!! the fares have risen up to the mountains, people. take cover! hide in a bomb shelter before the fares shoot your pocket and burnt them hard.. RUNN!!

so much for the drama. but yeah, the fares are now killing me (you students out there better be HAPPY that youre still in school okay) and of course nana. haha. we're officially broke. (i dont know exactly how many time i announced that). so yeh, broke. and mom just had to piss me off. TODAY, and yesterday. and i think, for many many more days to come. oh boy~ (why is my mom sooo different from all mothers? -god, can you swap my mom with someone else's? ..please..)

ANYWAYS, i got for nurF a job, dee a job, and yas a job! hahaha. im so proud. (: im just good la. hahaha. okay shut up. this is like totally random.

i brought my camera to work yesterday and cam whored (tiredly) with nana after work. we're dissed my so many "mat cleaners" at wisma. they just have no freaken sense of direction la. they're like wandering around hopelessly and in the end, stop at the front of ladies' toilet and crap. wth ? -disgrace to manhood.

i'll upload the pictures soon la okay ? nenek's here for sleepover. so you know what that means. no more late nights-in-front-of-the-comp for me. GET IT ? ..good.

im actually late for work but i'm like still blogging happily over here. im trying to please the crowd! wahaha. (: -bad excuse. anyways, will blog soon yea ?

ohh ohh!! and,

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CAROLYN!! as ive said, just ONE MORE YEAR to the legalised year (so that you dont have to go round faking ids into clubs or get ciggs and buy vodkas without having to force a cramped face at the counter) SO HOLD ON! hehehe. meanwhile, enjoy sex while youre anticipating for 18-hood. we're legalised for that one! oh, love you! <3*

`Bee.

ORANGEE`

okay, that's soo totally out of point. ..wait, i havent even got a point yet. anyhoos, it's been madly ages since i took a picture of myself with my OWN camera. thanks to the dead batteries in them, the busy work schedule i have with me, the super busy days wich i dont go out. and when dad passed me some batteries, and recharged my camera, i suddenly have this awkward grip around my cammie.

..why ? you can tell, it's been really long. and i just cant smile anymore. i suddenly dont feel pretty in my own cammie anymore. that's sooo.. unusual. oh wells, everything takes time. i just lost the touch to cam whoring. (or was it whoring around? ..hahahaha) and just like my cordless phone. it's really getting on my nerves. it's left to be abandoned in my room for almost a month and it had techically died without charging the batteries.

so when i charged it for the whole night last night, (like finally..), the phone just created more problems. it simply just cant be used! like, the "talk" button is not functioning. not that im asking for it to talk, like literally! ..imagine a talking phone.. one that gossips along with you. freaki.

..okay, lame.

SO, i feel pretty good actually. helped farhanz with his malay homework. (the hanz i knew from aunt ina's friend who's apparantly is in the same sch as nurF) well i kno malay language is such a hoe sometimes and you just cant be stuffed to do their homeworks. especially malay compositions. for me, i have to think double the effort because i have to think of what to write and how to translate it in good malay. hurhur. i never liked mother tongue.

who did ? maybe cikgu rahim did. but certainly not me. i wouldnt wanna lose my teeth like he did! it's going to be super embarrasing! ..fine, that didnt link.

anyhows, im on the afternoon shift today (: because, im going to anna's place bfo work later to get my goddamned mp3 back! i hope the batt's still full. i just changed the batteries i think. and i always forget to off it properly.. which resulted in battery wastage! ..no wonder dad said: go get batteries for yourself, if i have to provide you always, im going to die with you overdosed battery consumption.

..hahahahaha. i love his wit (: that secret milk tray chocolate eater! (he gulped the whole layer of chocolate la. and i thought it was still new..)

me: dad, have you tried this ? *points to a chocolate wrapped in a wrapper
dad: duh, ive tried everything la.
me: is that why the chocolate box is so empty ?
dad: heh.
me: !!

anyways, today is farhan the cat's birthday. (yeah, sometimes im appalled at the number of farhans that i know. except farhanz. his "farhan" is the special breed. he's name is genuinely attached with a "z" at the back. haha, cool. (: ) so..



happy 17th birthday you cat! HAHA. may all ur dreams and wishes come true all throughout your years. (: tmrw turn 18 huh ? well two words for ya : DREAM ON! hehehe.



there's so many january babies. and my pocket's officially dried and torn. but i guess i'll get your presents when i get my pay yea ? insya allah. hehh. PSST NANA! let's go shopping man. somewhere NOT town. im so sick of town. hurhur. how ironic. nyehehe.

by the way, i've made up my mind. i am going to join the Istana performance with the band come this 31st. ive made changes to my work schedule and i hope things go as planned.. because, MUBZ is gna perform toO!! yeay! i hope wadah will perform too. ): because i miss the old fours! -me,syu,siti and mubz. pls be there, syu. i miss you! and the old fours. oh wells, thanks mubz! ..for anything la. you always have to agree to me. hehe. youre sucha nice friend. muacks! <3!

hmmm... so tell me, who's a Fallout Boy fan out there ? who ? who.. ?? issat you, i see ? ahhh.. well here's a little something for you to look at. and laugh a little. it may seem pretty offensive but i hope you guys wont take it to heart. just for the sake of laughing. a little bit of fun wont hurt no one (:

click here for the video! it's actually an interpretation of a Fallout Boy song. hehh. enjoyy! (this is credits to asyraf kecik. thanks dude!)

and here's a little something else for you babies who are born on the 29th.. (of any month) :

You are described as ideal partner , loving and romantic. In fact, one of your life's priority goals is to find the love of your life. But remember to keep it real , too or else , no guy out there will ever meet your expectations.

<romance land.>>

awww` isnt it true ? if you know me well enough, it's near the total truth dont you think so ? and i think people like ema, qah.. are also somehow intertwined with this random "fact" here, aye ? ahha. okay that's all, folks.

with that, i hope youve enjoyed my post. (:
`Bee.

youre beautiful.. youre beautiful it's true..

ahh, now that i have a new layout, it always happen to me that i should blog to keep the beauty intact. yeah, weird theory but what the hell. at least it kept me going. ..for whatever reason you have in mind. i dont give a damn. because now, i dont know where im driving at. im soo aimless. boo.

..and actually finding things to blog about. (:

so yea, didnt go to the band practise that i told them i'd come. because mom didnt allow me to. five days of work and another day of band ? and plus she saw how pigged out i was when i was snoring on my bed away. then she told me nt to go. so i didnt. lazy to argue la. mothers are jst mothers..

and today, it seems like she's finding fault with me man. super irritating you know. and she mentioned my dad. that's the part i fucking hate. c'mon lar. just because it merely slipped my mind to wipe that table, she started to say, "what are you waiting for ? waiting for your dad to come all the way from sengkang to lick the table is it ?!" and i straightaway gave her a sharp and fierce look.

if i hadnt thought of wanting silence and shut her bloody mouth, i'd have shouted back at her like nobody's business. but i guess, tolerance is the best medicine yet. so i'll just tolerate and tolerate while i can. and when i cant take it anymore, she can jolly well visit me in my grave when she realised her mistakes.

it's just so irritating to know that your own mother is spitting ultimate shit into your face about the most sensative things in the world. yes, she's angry but so what ? cant she learn how to control ? cant she learn how to fucking mind her words before just shooting it at me ? if there's one thing in the world that i can never stand, it'd be her temper. she's soooo unreasonable at times. and i soo hate it.

come on, YOURE MY MOTHER. you should be the most reasonable person on earth. so that i can run into your arms whenever i feel insecure. whenever i feel so down. but knowing you, i just feel like stopping short and look for another woman whom i totally dont know. its just so painful you know. you expect me to understand you. but do you ever do that to me ?

maybe it's true. time can be so cruel at times. -as quoted from sriee's nick. life's never fair. whenever you achieved something and it was the best of all and you go home feeling all rejoiced over it, sometimes your family member(s) just had to spoil and ruin your day. there's just something that will make you feel sad. no wonder they said, for every happy moment, it has 10 other sad times with it. its so totally true.

as i thought i could handle one problem and take it into stride, another one just comes up. making me totally agitated and all messed up. that's life.. for me. as for you, take life seriously. child's plays are getting boring. in other words, get a life.

- anw, ive been crazy for mychemicalromance now. their songs are so damn nice. ..and addictive. which explains a lot actually. their lyrics and music arrangements are good too.. for a emocore band like them. three cheers to them! sing a hell song for me, mcr. i might need them on my way to hell. thanks.

`Bee.

changed the layout`

like, duh. how's it ? good ? bad ? give me your comments yar. it's really really simple this one.

not many pictures. in fact, only one big one there. hehe. the pic of my brother and i. (: i love that one. so cute la the both of us. hehs. (:

so, im off to bed now. time check. 4:06 AM. WHOAA.

kk bye.

`Bee.

life's been superr... madness.

working life is definately something
that is really not easy.
i still remembered, the first day of work.
whoa. i was like, crying for help because
my knees, sole of both feet and my whole
entire legs were just pleading for comfort.
it was hell. but it was worthwhile.

now, i'm entering the third week of work.
..and i just had to leave my MP3 at my
cousin's place, LAR!
so fucking irritating you know.
going to and fro work with only an FM
is soo boring and sucky lar.
no more loud music stuffed into my ears
in the morning to keep me alive.
and going back home with no-connectivity
radio FM just pinches me to the max.
raah`

any-oh-how, im going back for band practice
tomorrow for the Istana performance.
i dont exactly have any idea of it but
i bet its gna be pretty fun.
not sure if mubz and syu are going but i'm
definately going for sure.. i guess.
cause band performances is something that
i missed so fucking much.
all the crappings, lamings and laughters
that i shared with my darling section are
the best memories that i ever have in band.
we're like the best section in the entire world.
shared our joy and sorrows together.

siti, syu, mubs and me.
four crazy lame stupid wacko kick-ass
french horn players.
me ? a snortty-temperamental-lame section leader.
hurhur. i hope they understood my attitude
the last time when i was coaching them.
raah` i miss them. i miss band. i miss my baby - the horn.
)): it's soooooo dented and andd.. spoilt now.
sighhh. poor baby.

..get me a new baby ? hurhur. 3 coloured one pls.
holton 181. silver, bronze and gold.
i.. miss.. my.. horn.. so.. much.. )):

anyhoos. how's life, you ask ?
life, for me, have been.. pretty.. ROCKY.
boo. hate this feeling of "im losing end"
cause every time i feel that way, i'll
really get all stressed up and moody and..
andd.. i dno la. but, sheesh. never thought
i could hide it any better.
because i just realised i crapped with nana
and qah on the way back home more than usual.
aha- something in me, that no one noticed.
heh. im good. you think so too ? heh, i know. (:

i miss NURUL! ..but she dont miss me ):
i always call her. pm her in msn. but she slalu
tk lyn sangat. sedey sei. always "on the phone" la.
ngan aku tknk on the phone. cibei btol.
hey setan! i rly miss u lor. da brape lame sei tk
jumpe. rindu rasa hati tau. ingin ku bertemu dgn mu!
nabei nye bodo. geram aku.
visit pat tmpat keje pon tk!
mentang2 da nk start skola. eh pegi la! jgn nak naik
lemak, babat bertepeks kat uma.
da la mak kao tu aku nye target.
MEE HAJAT SIAK!
raahh` i miss the crayon-fingers-bubble-shampoo-bath
times with you lar.
i wna slp over sei.
HAIZ. nonoks, kau. I MISS YOU la pantat.
see you SSOON MAN.
fucktard.
amek kao!

i miss sriee, lela andd andd.. someone else too.
sigh-
bored la now.
kk bye.

`Bee.

im sick!

sorry for the lack of updates guys.
i hardly have time for the net.
haha, blogging, more like.
im such a lazy bummer.
well i guess most of you can understand that.
typical nurool. (:

so today's off day for me.
actually no. but im sick, so yeh.
been having slight headaches here and there.
on top of that, the very much worsen sore throat,
the blocked nose bugger, flu
and the stupid irritating cough.

but all's fine i guess. at least, they're gna be.
hehehehehehehehehehehehhehehe.
okay prolonged illness lead to super stress pressure.
haha. stupid lor! whatever la.
hmm, since i havent been blogging for sometime,
let's do a little recap. (:

hmm. where do i start ?
ahh, new year's eve..

so it was okay. went to bukit batok cc-the-behind
to so called "countdown".
what the hell, total waste of time. raah` i was
bored to tears. was like whining and complaining
to my mom to go somewhere else for the countdown
before the midnight actually strike.
but she's got something to do or else we've gone down
to mount faber to watch fireworks.
missed chance. dangg!

bad start to my new year. super boredom and work the
next day on NEW YEAR'S DAY.
gosh, what could be more worst ?
lalala. but oh wells, at least im working.
or else people'll start complaining.
like nurF and lela. grrr.

new year's day.
worked. duh.. it was okay la. was really fun
climbing here and there to get shoes.
becuase the store is sooo goddamn high
which is exactly the height of isetan's
basement floor. waaaaay up there.
i was like, heh heh, spideygirl time.
lol, wth. but it was okay la.
when there were fussy customers,
of course i got pissed la.
they made me go all the way up and down
seven times (the most.. for now) to get their
goddamn shoes which never seemed to be
the perfect fit for them.
and in the end, bought only one. or sometimes,
NONE AT ALL.
alamaaaak. temper uprising sia.

and it was also the first time i took a busride
to town with honey star. heh heh.
it was fast, i must say. and the best was that
i got to sit throughout. (:
i bet i wont ever get to touch my butt on the
seat had i taken the mrt! gosh. madness.
ohh ohh, my feet was uber killing me la on the
first day of work. i was like, almost crying for help
because my soles are almost tearing apart.
whoa. i swore i never wore that pumps anymore.
totally not suitable for working! hah!

2nd january~
of course, it was working day again. this time,
i wore my dad's sport shoes. wahaha. (:
okay work was fine and was starting to get a hang
of it. nyehehehe. but too bad, no cute guys to look
at! im working at ladies' shoe department what. raaah.
hahaha. (: kidding!!

3rd january~
happy birthday nana! hahah. dissed her on my way
to work in the bus. i couldnt stop laughing to myself!
imagine yourself smiling to the phone in the bus.
omg. this is worst, i LAUGHED.
i dno how bad i laughed because i stuffed my ears
with earphones which were blasted with all the emocore
songs to keep me awake! hahaha.

i still love u la nana. (: and thanks for accompanying me
for lunch to eat my "nasi bungkus"! heh.

4th january~
nana and sharul accompanied me for lunch!
ooh, thankioos guys. i never wanted to eat alone.
haha. i swear, under ANY circumstances.
for nana, it was lunch with nurool - again.
haha. but it was okay la. ate at lucky plaza.
sharul ate some oyster thing. i was like, eww.
haha. i can vomit siak. its raw. or half cook.
or whatever. =\ nono.

then met nana, sharul, qah, asanul and han
after work. we went to visit meyaa!
on her first day of work. ehehe. (:
it was super packed la! i was like, omg
is this some club ? people were like squeezing
here and there la. moshing i guess. haha. (:

then went to eat at ljs with han and went home.

6th jan~
was sick! omg. my throat was uber sore and dry
and was coughing and and anddd. yeah.
but still had kfc with lili and jane.
oh yes, jane! my new friend. (:
met her at work while she had this one-day
work at my place. so yeh.
after dinner, i was like totally blurr.
so soo headachy.
then i decided to go home at around 8.
yea, then lili accompanied me (lol i felt
like ive blogged about this bfo).
so yeh. (:

`psst; he's so smart la. ..and cute. heh.

7th jan~
my parents went to jb and i was stuck
at home not knowing where to go.
told my mom i wna go to Xcapade! at
ngee ann city but didnt in the end.
met with nurF to watch narnia at cine.
and little did we realised that we were in
the same train with lili&gang.
apparantly they were also going to watch
narnia. so i thought joining them might
be a good idea. haha.
so yeah, joined them for movies and..
CRAPPED abt the show la!
haha. we're like laughing and laughing..
till i need to go to the toilet
and missed the santa clause part!

`psst: i still dont believe that part, lili billy!
haahah. santa clause ? oh nvm. (: heh.

sunday & today.
-nothing much la.

its been raining cats&dogs.
bitches&fuckers.
moos&meaows.
these days.

the rain's pouring MERCILESSLY!
oh god. its sooo cold and im freezing.
whoa if like that, how i go to work sei ?
raah` speaking of which, tmrw's
back to work for me.
BOO HOO!
okay, bye.

`Bee.

im not okay...

im sick. YEAH, sick. ooh la la.
im having a flu right now.
runny nose.. slightly sore throat,
a fever on the way and of course,
the VERY much coughings.

so today went to work with a heavy head.
was all sleepy and dozey.
and i had an uber soree throat.
was freezing in the bus without my jacket.
and amazingly 190 is super packed.. NOT today.
COOL. (:

so, met fadli billy for lunchios today.
OMG. he's so fucken handsome la. hahaha.
sheeeeeeeeesh. he dressed up like some WOW.
okok. not that big f*ck la. just that he's dressed
into MY kindar style. u kno wha' i mean ?
and hes drop dead cool.

..lucky me! lol he dont dress like that normally.
so, yehh.. BILLY YOU ROCK!

ahaha. so got back to work after lunch and
felt worst. mei hui suggested i sit in the store
and resst but it just made it even worst la.
because the store is all dusty andd stuffyy..
so i felt like shit and decided to go home.

initially asked a friend to go home with me.
but cancelled, so billy was the mr-nice-guy
who accompanied the sickly-miss-working-girl
back to bukit batok.
hurhur. (: THANKS BILLY.

..psstt i totally like that dressing man! im drooling. hahah!

`Bee.

MY APOLOGIES TO ALL;

so sorry for the lack of updates.
been busy and uber lazy to update these days.
and especially now that im working.
(NOTE!NOTE!..haha),
it'll be even more boring than this man.

i dont think anyone reads my blog anyways.
so yeah, haha. i dont really give a damn la.
LOL! ((: typical nurool.

to YY: i want my presents lehh! DONT BLUFF ME!
hurhur.

anw, in 2005, ive made and lost a friend.
(: cool~
though that friend that ive lost was someone
i loved so much, (hurhur) i guess it's all fated.
since he made the choice to "not know me at all"
i'll go with it. (:
never knew a guy who's SO PETTY like him.
well, one in a million i must say.
good luck to his future girlfriend.

so, i made a friend just in the nick of time
before 2005 was neatly wrapped up.
to her; im so glad we're friends. (:
no more guy-fighting. HAHA!
now looking back, its soooooo stupid.

OH GOSH.

im outtarf here! MY LEGS'RE ACHING LIKE FCUK.

woo la weets.` im an elle promoter! HAHA.

so much for wanting to keep it a secret.
DEE SPILT THE BEANS ALRDY! HAHA. (:

Bee. -misses her honey. (bee needs honey. HAHA)