im so afraid -`* i heard the results are going to be out on 6th FEB! omg. can somebody tell me it's not THAT soon ?? mummyy... i cant do this. i cant take this. im so fucking scared. im so afraid. im so timid. suddenly this acts like one big phobea for me. the deepest fear for me, the darkest side of life is about to unreveal.. will i make it ?
..will i not make it ? ): please, not so soon..
when dee told me that her friend checked out the date at some net, i was like, "NOOOOOOOO!!!!" dont tell me death day is soo fast ? judgemental day so early ? my fate shown so soon ? i cant take this. and i burst out to tears. oh god, im really afraid. i cant stop crying. ive this sore feeling that i cant make it. tell me why. tell me is it true ? im such a big letdown. ):
*prays* let me get through this just once. please..
on a lighter note, i brought my baby back! but it still cant wash away the fear that's instilled in me about my results. im so damn afraid. so damn scared. its too late to regret. and so, now i fret. what do i do ? what do i do ? tell me please, i beg you..
myBABY*
anyways, ive washed, cleaned and did a little soaking for my baby. scrubbed and bathed her so gently. because it's all scratched and DENTED already. ): now my heart is even more painful. sigh- good things hardly come while the bad things come all the time.
