ive been stuck onto my chemical romance a lot recently. i think im depressed. and it's not good. though i shared so much laughter with mubz and my girls, it's just not the same. and to make it worst, the arrival of the o level results are not comforting me any further, yet.
so scary but yet so looking forward. actually no, im totally not looking forward to getting my results. i feel like there's something inside me screaming and yelling at me that im not going to do as well as the people around me, in the effort to comfort me, think i am. i know my standards. and i know what's coming is reality. and reality bites hard in your butt.
*ouch* ):
but i got to live on and make it to the day when i get my results. it aint easy for me to cope. ive been hearing so much, felt so different, and sometimes been traumatised too. its practically haunting me. rahh, stop bugging me, you horror! im totally discouraged.
nevertheless, nabz was so sweet to choke some faith into me. i was brimming with pessimistic thoughts and i couldnt feel any hope left it me. in fact, i dont think there's any left in me. until nabz told me that she believes that i can. she told me to trust her. i didnt, in the first place. but i tried to take things for the better and trusted her. but i know i cant be extravagant. the cut runs deep if reality stings.
but oh wells, thanks a mill nabz. owe you one. (: love you loads.
so, cny eve i had to work. initially i thought i had that day off but mei hui told me that i'll be coming for work with her for half a day til 5.30pm only. but yea, mom was right. "that's your normal working hr what.." well yea, but the store closes for it's half day. hurhur. and i have to work along as well. not that it mattered so much. at least i got to hang out with my girls.. though susu was there with us, or with me more like, for just half an hr. sigh- so much for a reunion. ): but it's okay.. i totally understand her situation. and so does ayn's. (:
met the rest of the girls after work at wisma's level three. all of us got so excited when we saw each other's faces and went like, "OMG!! HEYY!!!!", so loudly that we turned heads to us. haha. well, it's been a longgg longgg time, my dear. LONG time.. <3!
MBS unite* - cept ayn. ): be there, the next time, aight girl! mwacks*
so first stop, taka. sat outside taka and cam-whored. (i shant elaborate on that). next, we had to send susu off because of some reasons she couldnt stay any longer. poor her. ): then met liyana at orchard mrt. and we went to taka (again) because fyra wanted to see someone. (: nyehehes. got enough of it and went on to far east to dig in! oooooh, sakura la, what else. nyahahas.
it's been so long since we last sat together and eat as a whole group. laughed and crapped and shared food across the table. ohh, so many memories. <3>
here's some of the pics that we took along the way;
this was taken at the top of the escalator. my cam's good! it's on a moving escalator btw. (:
and this, was taken at the reflection of that escalator we came down from. it was dirty! and my GOOD camera cannot outclear the clarity. HAHA. crap`
forest? no, nice background. wisma underpass. COOL STUFF. xD
of course, what is a girl without dolling up ? we went to the toilet and spent almost an hr in there. since there wasnt any soul in that closed far east plaza. kinda freaki but oh wells. (:
sizzling hot*
ultimate beauty (:
the foursome.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v670/nurool/cnyeve-MBout002.jpg" height=210> my girlies and i* (now this mirror is so much better. nyahahas)
and of course, the final touches. (:
the best girls in my life. mwachs* :D
headed home and talked somemore in the train. we made a new friend. haha. caro's friend. i forgot the name. but yea, nice chap. haha.
so, yeah. and today, spent the whole afternoon at mubz's place practising the horn. and made his blog for him. do link him yea, guys. here it is. (: so cute la the URL. "just write my name" haha. (: crappy friend. so much for the laughters. crapped more than we practised. gosh, i hope we're ready for the performance. at least we've brief-ed through Abba Gold. hope that we dont screw Grease up. nyahahas.
good luck, USSBand for tmrw's performance! mwacks. love you all.
psst; mubz cooked/made spag bolognaise for me! woo hoo. it was spicy.. and gingery.. haha. not bad la. (: thanks mubz!
okay im out `Bee.
- sometimes i wish you didnt missed me for our past..
