ahh, now that i have a new layout, it always happen to me that i should blog to keep the beauty intact. yeah, weird theory but what the hell. at least it kept me going. ..for whatever reason you have in mind. i dont give a damn. because now, i dont know where im driving at. im soo aimless. boo.
..and actually finding things to blog about. (:
so yea, didnt go to the band practise that i told them i'd come. because mom didnt allow me to. five days of work and another day of band ? and plus she saw how pigged out i was when i was snoring on my bed away. then she told me nt to go. so i didnt. lazy to argue la. mothers are jst mothers..
and today, it seems like she's finding fault with me man. super irritating you know. and she mentioned my dad. that's the part i fucking hate. c'mon lar. just because it merely slipped my mind to wipe that table, she started to say, "what are you waiting for ? waiting for your dad to come all the way from sengkang to lick the table is it ?!" and i straightaway gave her a sharp and fierce look.
if i hadnt thought of wanting silence and shut her bloody mouth, i'd have shouted back at her like nobody's business. but i guess, tolerance is the best medicine yet. so i'll just tolerate and tolerate while i can. and when i cant take it anymore, she can jolly well visit me in my grave when she realised her mistakes.
it's just so irritating to know that your own mother is spitting ultimate shit into your face about the most sensative things in the world. yes, she's angry but so what ? cant she learn how to control ? cant she learn how to fucking mind her words before just shooting it at me ? if there's one thing in the world that i can never stand, it'd be her temper. she's soooo unreasonable at times. and i soo hate it.
come on, YOURE MY MOTHER. you should be the most reasonable person on earth. so that i can run into your arms whenever i feel insecure. whenever i feel so down. but knowing you, i just feel like stopping short and look for another woman whom i totally dont know. its just so painful you know. you expect me to understand you. but do you ever do that to me ?
maybe it's true. time can be so cruel at times. -as quoted from sriee's nick. life's never fair. whenever you achieved something and it was the best of all and you go home feeling all rejoiced over it, sometimes your family member(s) just had to spoil and ruin your day. there's just something that will make you feel sad. no wonder they said, for every happy moment, it has 10 other sad times with it. its so totally true.
as i thought i could handle one problem and take it into stride, another one just comes up. making me totally agitated and all messed up. that's life.. for me. as for you, take life seriously. child's plays are getting boring. in other words, get a life.
- anw, ive been crazy for mychemicalromance now. their songs are so damn nice. ..and addictive. which explains a lot actually. their lyrics and music arrangements are good too.. for a emocore band like them. three cheers to them! sing a hell song for me, mcr. i might need them on my way to hell. thanks.
