and that's mubz and i, in the bus back from Ngee Ann Poly. miss crapping with him la. lame ass. xD
..did i tell you about the concert USSBand's going to have ? yes ? no ? okay, so i've decided. imma perform, dude! i mean, hey, that's my band out there (ceh) and man, i've been wanting to perform with my own band in our own concert. cause i've performed with BMCB way back last year and it's been a helluva fun time with them. especially the phantom of the opera.
honestly, i after the Jubliance 1 in VCH last jan with the BM kids, i felt so wonderfully good. like as if, the bond was there. so tight, so close. cool man.. really cool. i felt like WOW. and when i was acting as "Christine", i felt like a princess right there. owh man! i wna do it again! it's soooooo fun.
plus! i've always wanted to act in a theatre. or a stage play. like, real life in front of audiences but not cameras. you get wha' i mean ? please please please!!! another one of my ultimate dream. nyeehaww.
okay, 'nuff of all the excited jiggles, wet-in-the-pants/hormonal-raging-soul day-dreams. i just realised that quite a number of people sortarf go against my idea to be in the media line/course/whatever. let me set some examples. abg ridzwan- he said that i cant earn much through media. like, a diploma alone. by the time i reach 30, then i can earn around 3000 odd. and he said by then it'll be too late. i've kids to feed, myself to support (of course i've got the husband to manage with me) but it's pretty a puny sum to start off with.
and so i thought to myself, am i willing to take this route ? well, not like as if i CAN get into the media line so damn easily anyways. and furthermore, i've got this passion for it that's burning in me. and im not sure if this passion is going to burn me, later near future. (if you kno wha' i mean).. so i thought to myself (again), do i really want to go for this course ? but at that point of time, my hopes were still high.
then i talked to the bestfriend, dee, about this. she was like, "what's so good about the media?" then i asked myself again and again, "yea, what IS so good about the media ?" and now im really unsure. but that's what i like! inner self: the reason why you like it is because it's all about showbiz.. and i guess it's right. it's because i love singing, acting, dancing that i want to do this thing. so i just kept my cool and just sighed it off.. sigh..
then fadli told me that his sister has a diploma in FSV. the course that i've been dying for. and he said she cant get a job anywhere with this diploma. now she has to go to university to get a degree before getting a nested job for herself. thing is, she's still schooling! because.. she cant get a job! owh. myy. gawd. :O (lela, i borrow awhile ah..) i was like, REALLY??? geeeee.
now im turning to myself, should i or should i not get into media line ? my dad doesnt seem to agree anyways. well i guess god is trying to show me my way out, maybe because ayah doesnt approve it a hundred percent. mom doesnt seem like it, too. WHEN SHE'S THE ONE WHO SAID SHE'LL SUPPORT ME IN ANY LINE I TAKE. grrrr. mom reckoned i should take business studies. when I HATE IT! owh man. why is everyone AGAINST ME?!?!?!?!
brrrrr... it's so frustrating you know. all the close knits around me, cept one or two la, kinda shoved me about my interest in media in a way or another. i can sense it you know! i know it when you say something. i fucking know how to read your mind la, please! okay, "you" here is to all. no one in particular. (i know we used to do that when we're shooting those words to someone in particular, but no, this is for general..) lol, disclaimer. hahaha.
..o'wells..
hey, i just browsed through my picture folder and i found pretty old pictures. well not that old, but just.. old la. :D here are some of my "prom submission pics" i had to send last time. haha. some taken with dee for fun! :D
and as time changes, we change. people change. :D so let's see how i am now.. hee.. xD nyeheh.
nyee haww! okay ive got to go. see ya later alligators! :D
