oh crap! it's so soon. first i was afraid, i was petrified. now, im horrified. like, tremendously. *heartbeats faster. okay stupid. i dont believe it you know. im soooooooo.... im soo.. im soo.. i dont know. it's so soon. that's all i can say.
~too serious too soon.. ):
i already felt the heat early this week about the getting of my results. it's really freaky. just last monday i was talking about the confirmed date for the collection of the results. and i could already felt the tremendous rush down my spine. now, it's getting worst. im more and more afraid of the truth. i really dont know how it'd be once i step into the school hall tomorrow. it's going to be H-E-L-L, i tell you.
i'll keep going to the toilet. or i'll keep trying to not cry. or i'll keep fidgeting like a mad kid on a chair, while waiting. and please, im not anticipating any moment of it. and all these freaky stuffs are making me feel so poignant. owh, im so afraid.
just as i thought i've got so long a vacancy to "do as i wish", i dont. it's ending soon. it's ending today, by the way. it's going to end, at 2:29PM tomorrow. or for some, like me, tonight. and i swear i cant sleep tonight. i know it. i bet i'll be crying on bed to sleep. and sleep because of my very tired body from work. A-F-A-F-A-F-R-A-I-D.. A-F-A-F-A-F-R-A-I-D.. (copied from ashlee's l-o-l-o-l-o-l-o-v-e..) -hurhur.
but anyways, many has told me to stay calm and told me to "relax a little". they said, "maybe its not so bad after all.." and some said, "you can always try alternative routes if you think you cant make it.." well, i can say i have to think optimistically. but im not putting any effort to do so. ive been such a pessimist bitch ever since i learnt about the o level results are going to be released, last week.
boo hoo. im so scared. im TRYING to stay calm okay, people. i am trying so hard. but it keeps coming. im totally daunted and my hopes are dampened. maybe i should learn to really let loose a little. BRRRRRRRRRRR (does monkey faces) eeeee aaahhhhhh oooohhhhh uuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh.. blearghhhh.... brrrrr... squeeeeeekssss......
pfft.
that was silly. okay i guess i do feel much better. and ive got to go to work now. maybe i'll blog later. maybe i wont.
i'll see how okay. and if i dont blog again after friday, i'll be poofing off already. like, gone. i wont talk to you people about my results and dont freaken ask me about it okay! or else, imma kill you assholes and let you rot to death.
