first and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MUMMY!!

and she turns 39 today! :)
mummy, that's old you know.
you're a breath next to 40!
but youre still young.
..young at heart. <3>
i love you!!! mwacks.

and i was so proud and happy when i saw the look on her face as soon as i took out the Guess paper bag from my room. she was beaming! hell yea. and she was sooo happy. well at least i could tell it by the way she went like, "wah... what's this?? -tears open the paper bag-" hahaha. exaggerating. :)

i like the feeling of being appreciated. especially the note i gave her. it was short, and simple. very simple indeed. though it was my handwriting that made it look so damn long. but it brought mom to tears. she was touched. and so was i. i felt like, this was the most sincere gift i ever had for her. maybe i do rant about how big the hole is in my pocket, but honestly im very sincere. the feeling is marvellous. simply, terrific.

my parents, got a little intimate for that moment. dad was singing the happy birthday song while hugging mom in his arms, and ended with a peck of kiss on mom's cheek. i know that's not all because as soon as i stepped up to get the present i had for mom in the room, there was a loud smoooch sound in the living room. aww.... love grows old together with us. and that's the best gift, ever. :)

at the same time, there are three other people who's birthday are in March as well. and i guess i could do the greetings here, once and for all. :)

firstly, Happy Birthday to Suhaila! the eldest MB among the 7 of us. (of course, me being the seventh :D) yeap, i heard about the last minute cancellation of the mini-celeb that we MBs planned to have. but it's alright yea ? we'll do something about it. No worries. nuh-uh. :) hugggs*

next, comes Kak Nani! my wonderful sister-in-law. sorry i couldnt attend the dinner with the rest of you guys at KFC last night. i had to work and yea, it couldnt be helped. but i hope youre happy and contented with whatever you have. god bless you. happy birthday! :)

last but not least, to Elis! my dearest sister. 14 already aye, better behave and be good okay! love you lots. hugs&kisses* :)

im sorry if i havent get anyone any present yet. as you know (if youve been following up with my entries; which are rarely there) im currently -almost-peniless. but i'll try not to overspend the next time. :) ha-ha. "resolution" kaper.. :D

ive been seeing that charming guy a lot at work lately. and he's been so freaking irritating at the same time. but i casually caught him looking at me. i mean, hello the cashier is just right in front of my nose.. i mean, my elle counter. honestly, he's got that something that makes me attracted to him. not his looks, not his appearance.. but his.. charm. yea. he's got that special something.. you know ? ohh.. i cant help this. i do get "hurt" at times when he says something negative about me. like.. my appearance. oh wells. let's forget about it. let's just stick to that mr charming dude. :D yea that's about it.

anyways, the medical check up went fine. but i had my menses so i couldnt proceed with the urine test. but that stupid nurse.. let's talk about her. you know there's this tube/bottle/container where you keep all the extracted blood in, right ? yea, that one.. i had to check my name and ic number on it to make sure it's the right one. i checked twice before allowing the nurse to carry on with the blood test.. so when she poked through my viens and got the blood, i simply looked away. (hey, im not amazed by my own blood okay)

i mean, i didnt want to see the blood going into that bottle and how much of iron in my body arms it has taken away. so i asked, "will it hurt?" and the nurse replied, "oh yes, of course. it's very pain..." and her expression didnt falter. i was half furious and half irritated. i mean, that's so bad of her. stupid nurse.. then when the extraction was over, my left arm was immobile the nurse purposely ask me to check my particulars at the bottle again.

and i was like, "is she dumb or what?!" its so obvious that she wants me to look at the amount of blood that she's squeezed out of me. and she was like, "-shaking the bottle- nah.. look again. correct ar?" and i felt like shoving that bottle right up her ass if she asks once more. and if the doctor asks me where's my blood sample, i'll just say.. "in her ass.." grr..

then i proceeded to the.. (anyways, i was with the parents initially before they left me for KFC. wtf!?).. doctor's room. and for once i thought he's a sucker. when i came in i saw the things all done by the nurse. and he was reading a magazine. WTF?! magazine ? is he serious ? he's WORKING for god's sake. and that's totally obvious skiving. when i sat there, looking so helpless, he took my hand and stuck that velcro thing on my hand and took my pressure. then he took the stethoscope (oh shit, that's not how you spell it) and pressed the round thing on my left breast. no! not the nipple. almost close..

and i was like, "is that where the heart is? my breast doesnt have breast-beats.." to myself. and, like as if he knew, he shifted his hearing (of the heartbeat) to my right breast. whadda ?! like as if that made any difference.

what's with the doctors/nurses!? i swear SATA Jurong East branch is the horniest clinic ive ever been. and to think im returning there for my urine test! now what ? they'll say my urine's too hard? grr.. im never going to be like that! at least, not so indirect. :D -if you get what i mean.

by the way, i saw this pretty old apek riding an XR! for those who dont know, it's a scrambler bike by Honda. and i totally LOVE it. ..not the apek. i was like, "whoa.. apek naik motor scrambler.. hebat.." then my dad was like, "eh ape ? scrambler tak ade age limit okay.. nyonyah pon boleh naik tau.." hahaha. imagine my granny. WOW, rock on gmom! :D

anyways, nana was late for work! like, a few hours late. she didnt know she had to work. and i could see that coming. nana is soo blur. but at least, not as blur as lela is. but.. she's soo.. i dont know la. hahahaha. but she's late. she broke her record. :) the record of "ive-never-been-late-for-any-work" in her life. congrats nana!

see? humans are never perfect. sweeeet. :)
`Bee.

first things first.. i've got nana a job! and im very excited to work with her. :D hey man, it's your old time buddy youre talking about. and that simple yet couldnt-be-bothered girl was the one who always accompanied me for lunch before that damned fucked up boss of hers totally ignored her.

how rude! ..but i got her a replacement job. and it's MY place she's replacing. :) -beams. im so proud that im "giving away" my job to her because at least i feel that i could do something to help her out and somehow comfort her of her poor plight. and hey, i feel so good.

tomorrow, or today, in fact is going to be nana's first day of work! funny how i'm more excited than she is. maybe it's because of the company that im going to have. i've been having a totally boring and fucking irritating bitch as my working partner for almost two weeks now. and i cant stand it! and i'll make sure she and i will take care of the floorstacks promotional shoes instead of the counter, somewhere FURTHER away from her (that bitch). :D

oooh! it's going to be so much fun. yeay.. i'll be in the morning shift later for work. and i've to be there like, extra early to pack and arrange nicely the floorstacks stocks at 9 AM. and that's torture, im telling you. im no person who comes to work early for bummer's sake. 9.30 am is already soo early for me and the best i could reach was minutes before 10am. and to think i have to be at work by 9am is like making me shit out gold eggs for exchange of extra hard work that ive got to put in to pack the stocks like barter trade.

im not complaining, am i? seriously, Fashion Street Pte Ltd (company/supplier of Elle and U.R.S & inc sandals) has got to do something to compensate my hard work and dilligence at work. hah! dilligence my foot! i've been "eating snakes" (which also means lazing around and not doing any work when supposed to) in the store rooms like most of the time. ..with fiona. hahahaha.. dilligence..

oh yes, about that bitch i mentioned earlier ? i hate her husband too. only a little lesser compared to my hatred for his wife. and i totally see why they matched. dee, fyra and some other colleagues of mine should know who im referring this "bitch" as. i shant talk about her no more. no more space already. :D

..oh yes! ive got my enrolement package already! yeappidoo.. it was three minutes to midnight when i stepped out of the house and greeted dad who just came back from i dont know where and headed for the door and then towards the mailbox. i was exhillirating with happiness when i saw the NYP logo to a big, bulky envelope that states "ENROLMENT GUIDE". hoho. this is it. no more stupid thoughts of NYP sending a apology letter to me saying that "im sorry, we've sent the approved appeal letter to the wrong person" already.. hurray..

argh.. something's wrong with my mouse. the desktop's mouse i mean. i dont keep pet mice. hoho. its really frustrating because seems like the upwards scroller is constantly stucked which leads to my constant "arghs" and "shit mans" due to the stupid old mouse. i think it's time to get a new desktop laptop! :D there was a pamphlet on "Notebooks which are going on special prices" inserted together, (sempat), in between the forms that were in the pockets of the folder. was on the phone with lela when i saw that. maybe i should get one of those. heh heh heh..

im so excited for school. and am really anticipating for school to start. dont ask my why.. im sure you'll be going like, "nurool, the first thing that i picture you is not as a nurse.. but a pornstar" or something like that. but having seen all the nursing adverts and all those things ive heard about their good future (eg. good career prospects, confirmed job postings, ecetra.), i thought being a nurse is a good thing after all.

"you should take the nursing ad train. it's really inspirational for nurses to be.." -meyaa, who was trying to inspire me about the nursing course that im going to take - by extracting phrases from those ads in the MRT. how thoughtful.. :D

but all's good. im still enjoying life. still enjoying working life. and still looking forward to working with nana! :D pheew weet. i really find that guy at work super cute. i finally got to talk to him today and wowh, he's so cute. no, ive told no one, and im not going to tell anyone. whee! it's a secret. :) psst.. he's a cashiet, which makes looking at him even easier. my counter's just opposite the cash counter! ooh lala. this is heaven. :D life's just going on good for me. all until april 13th comes. -orientation day. and i really wonder what we'll be doing there. heck, it's 10 hours and a half of orientation! what are they thinking ?

..half the day, almost, gone. and they better be good. i dont want to end up dreading the orientation and SHIT, class groupings! oh no NO. i want to be in the same class as lela! and ema. and and.. the rest of them! ..the people i know, of course. especially lela. :( boo. let's just hope. and i always hate the feeling to hope because i've never felt so confident about hoping. >.<

but this time, it BETTER be good. argh. forget about that bit. i might just change my mind about pursuing nursing like once and for all. hah. so much for the excitement.

anyways, ive got wake up early later, remember ? let's concentrate on work first before i start getting all caught up with the forms ive got to fill and whatnots. at least work's still the best environment to be in for now. all set and familiarised. :)

but before i do so, let me list the things that ive got to do:

• prepare urine for Medical Check up
• Settle School Fees
• fill up the whole chunk of forms
• discuss this whole thing with the mother. (which is supposed to be the first on the list)
• THEN, plan my expenses when the paycheck arrives. :)

i've got so much date dues to meet. i hope i dont get all messed up and end up like a nurse gone wrong. but for now, i'll go get my rest first. toodles, la bambas. :)

# funny as it is, i might be meeting farid mario after work to chill. cool, aye ? let's see how it goes. movie maybe? let's just see la, okay. anyways, it's only maybe that im going to meet him. heh heh.

`Bee. :)

hello.. good morning! :) ..actually i really forgot what i wanted to blog about. i was planning to blog last night but the mother was walking around here and there and meyaa wanted to call for a chat so i thought i'll blog again today. and now.. i totally lost the moment.

so i guess i blog again later then. okay ? bye.


naww... since im on this, i might as well just blog la. ah! now i remembered.. okay, let's start again. :D

i've got a nice dolphine bracelet! bought from BANGKOK!.. again. the last i remembered was mei hui's trip to bangkok and she came back with a hello kitty watch for me. and now, aunty ah chew went to bangkok and got me a nice dolphine bracelet. thing is, it's from bangkok. nono, nothing bad about it. but it's so freaken funny that my stuffs are all from bangkok!

first, fathu bought me a watch from bangkok when he was there last year. then it's like i wore it everyday til it's spoilt. just as i thought i needed a new watch, mei hui got me that hello kitty watch from bangkok. (another WATCH). then, just recently i thought of buying a new bracelet. for fun, you know. and then aunty ah chew got me a dolphine bracelet. ..uh, from bangkok too.

tell me, is this some sort of telephathy that i have? between bangkok and me? because it's so funny that whatever that ive been meaning to buy something, it's always given to me as a souvenir FROM BANGKOK. oh my god. the last i remembered being there was when i was 9. yeeeeeaaaarrsss ago. when riding on a tuk-tuk was fun. :D

one thing about bangkok is there's a lot of transexuals. im sure you guys know that. when i was in bangkok the last time, my parents and i went to this show.. made up of transexuals. and oh my, they really look like fine ladies! with huge boobs and sexy bodies. i was appalled.. and of course amazed by their "doctor" (at that time, i was a kid. so i dont know what the hell was a surgeon). and i still remembered how dad used to explain to me about how they got such big boobs when they're men.

"before every show, they'll all line up in front of the doctor in the doctor's room and inject their nipples and it will boost up within five minutes.."

i almost wanted to say, "dad, you saw 'em before?" and he just replied a "yea.. but it wasnt theirs. it was your mom's.." and i was smiling so slyly. i didnt know why slyly but i was like, heh heh heh. hahaha. so much for the drama. and of course being a just a nine-year-old-kid, i took those words in! when i think back, and told dad about it, he was like, "hey, that's the best i could do! you wouldnt know what silicons were! you almost eat them from the shoe box!"

hahahaha. okay, dad. nice try.

this morning, i was interrupted by a funeral band playing some slow and old chinese classics while sleeping. i was pretty furious because i hate to be disturbed while im sleeping. i mean, i slept at 4 last night, and the least you could do is to play your songs in the later part of the day right. i was all cranky and frustrated and wanted to almost throw my pillow out, hoping that it'll end up in their instrument bells and mute it. i was having a dream about performing in my band too you know!

this is one big disadvantage living on the first floor. if only there's an elevator underneath my floors that can elevate the whole block up, i've already pushed the button. >.<

but it's alright. they've stopped already. and i cant get back to sleep! which is why i woke up to blog. okay okay.. im cool. im cool.

so, had a loong three hour chat with the sister on the phone last night. :) it was cool because we talked about every single human and soul as if we know them inside out. well we do of course, but it was just so cool la. especially gossiping about the people that we dont like. oooh, gets me driven of my bed. luckily i didnt fell off the bed or fell asleep while talking to her. but her phone's something wrong that she recalled like thrice. goodness. oh yea, nana broke her phone what! hahahaha.

but all's good. :) i had fun talking to her and sorts. we both barely have the time to chill out because im always working and im always too busy for anyone. and that's the best that we could do. :) i love you la meyaa.

and i love YOU too, lela! yeaps, we'll be the best coursemates ever. :D ema! huda told me someone said if you wear the white dress, you'll unbutton in all the way down to show your cleavage. HAHHAHA. and i thought it was so damn funny. and that's the sexy nurse! hahaha. :D

speaking of sexy nurses, i havent checked my mailbox to see if i've gotten the enrolement package. i really should check because i need to have the check ups and sorts. i want to know my health results too you know.

and i hope i'm healthy enough. needles wont get in my way. :D so no worries. xiu ling is afraid of needles and wants me to accompany her go check up. ahaha. being a good friend, i will. :D and if lela wants me to accompany her, i'll go too! im sucha nice friend. :p

and i hope I dont get freaked out myself! :D

`Bee.

im.. im.. a NURSE!

hahahahahahhahahahahah!!!

..and i still cant believe it. but i've got company! there's lela, ema, carisa, xiu ling.. and hahah i dont know who else. im not super happy because i'm finally becoming a nurse, it's just that i finally got into a school! well in case all of you out there have been wanting to know, i didnt manage to get into a school during the JAE admission exercise. MOE posted me to nowhere which led me to super life disruption after that.

well, i was heartwrenched. i mean, hey.. where's my life going ? i wasnt back on track and things were toppling down like nobody's business. i went through a lot actually. i get sensative over the slightest things but no one noticed, thankfully. it was a hard phase i had to go through. i became impatient at times because im so farking anxious. we're talking about a future here, hello!

so then, i got really pissed sometimes when people kept asking me which school i was going and sorts. and i mean, i got REALLY goddamned pissed. i dont know why i cant control myself ever since this happened. i wasnt being myself totally. i kept thinking and pondering where i should go had i really not a chance to be in any school pursuing any course..

i even thought of working all my life! ..and that'd be such a dramatic waste. because knowing me, im not exactly like my mother. i dont work all out to get the things that i really want. mother told me to appeal and keep on appealing (like she did to get me into Unity when we moved house last two years because i hated Regent so damn much. and i cant possibly go into Kranji right ? it's so far!) until i get somewhere. yes, i am strong willed. but im not persistent. ironic as it seems, i always prefer to think of alternative and go aimlessly with whatever appealing i did which i know i can never get.

i mean, it's realistic right ? we've got to be practical in this world. this fast changing world. a world which is soooo modern that... okay, forget it. so you see, my life was a trauma to carry on before i got to know the results that im going to be a nurse. (HAHHAAHAHHAHA!! laugh with me, damnit) and somehow, i seem to understand why a lot of people are against my wanting to go into the Media line.

people like, mother, father, abg wan, fadli, maybe dee ? i dont know. but i know a lot la. and now i seem to be thankful and so very thankful that im not in the media line, having met the COP or not. :) im starting a new life now. in a totally different world. a different concept. no more cameras and pretty make-ups. it's all about what's life really brings. the practicality of life. the hardship. the suffer. and the pity. i got to be versatile.. if a good actress i can be, a good NURSE i'll be too! (hahahAHhAHahaHha!! that still tickles me bad. hahaHAHA!!)

im sorry guys but the fact that im a nurse. the thought, i mean. it's so funny. i cant imagine myself pushing the medicine cart here and there with my nurse dress, which knowing me, would be very short (haha), and serving all the sickly patients their medicines. my personal msg in MSN says : hi mr so-and-so, here's your medicine. *bends down* oops, not that one. :D

and people are telling me the patients are going to get a sexy nurse. more like erotic! hahaha. hey! dont blame me. lela made me a "horny witch" that was meant to be a character in her supposed-to-be-novel-that-she-wanted-to-write-but-i-dont-know-what-happened-to-it. perfect! imma hot, sassy and sexy nurse. i so cant wait for the enrolement package to come. and i'll be ready for the checkup! not that im looking forward to it. but its more like i want to get over and done with it. :D

then i can carry on and be the sexy nurse! hahaha.

ohh ohh! good news is that, if i sign the bond contract with a hospital (from the enrolement package), i'll get to have 850bucks every month as salary! WOO HOO! i dont have to work! and that so soooo rock you know. even though i know things are going to be expensive, it still doesnt hurt to use a little and do some retail therapy right ? hey, patients can be pain in the ass too, you know!

but during attachments, we'll tend to get bullied. you know, freshie nurses always tend to being ordered around and doing all those shitty work. ahh.. i get them all the time. even at home and im sure i can get used to it. :) especially with lela around! ..i hope. :D

air 0q39 e219o47vq23 yaw9Y! )(Wye0wa9yr(! ..sorry, my alarm clock just beeped. freaked me out there. gosh. so much for being a nurse. how can i when a puny alarm signal scares me off! hahaha. but it's good. all's good. the alarm signal was to tell me to get a shower and get ready for work!

yes, im working today. and the floorstacks sales are coming! i dont know why im so happy about that. haha. but, they're coming! it's going to be fun working in the promotion area. hahaha. cool. :D

okay okay, imma sign out now, aight ? take care!!

imma freaken nUrSeEEe!!!!! ahaHAHhaHAhahhAHahahhaHAhhahHAhaha!! :D

`NURSE bee. :D

imagine yourself watching Power Rangers. :)

i got hooked onto it! if i wasnt, i dont think i could have wasted three precious hours and a half on watching Power Rangers S.P.D (which also means Space Patrol Delta) with my brother. and it was volume four AND five that we watched. each volume takes up like 1 hour and forty five minutes. that's long! even my ass was numb..

for once, i felt like i was seven again. watching those Rangers fighting and battling with those evil monsters, with their toy weapons (exact same ones!) in my hands.. mimicking those fighting styles they had. ..oh god, did i just say that ? i didnt even realise i was so engrossed in the shows! it's really power packed. only a little less realistic. well, that's what they're supposed to be! fakes! okay, not that fake. but you know what i mean.. they rock. :)

while i was on it, the parents were outside karaoke-ing. they sang all sorts of songs. and dad even made me come out of the room to sing a song. well i was honoured. :) ..hey! my dad was the Champion in "Juara 1982", a singing competition okay.. which he won maggi vouchers and noodles. hahahaha.

mraz was in town yesterday! or was it the day before ? not too sure but HE WAS IN TOWN! ohmygosh. geek in the pink! not referring to him of course. i just love his songs. and the way he sings, he's got that bit of attitude and style that no other celebrities have. he rawcks. but i wont kill someone just to get in esplanade concert hall like lela would. :) i'll just wait outside the stage entrance. then i'll bring him home! and.. talk to him on my bed naked. whoops, imagination ran too wild. he just rocks.

GINNY was freaking spontaneous! and i love her for that.. naw, i love her as a whole! when i told her about the Band Concert i was going to have, she was like "okay! i'll be there! i'll bring a friend as well. or maybe give me more time and i'll bring a greater peircean crowd" hahaha. she's so cute la. and sooo lovable. i can really imagine the way she'll say it to me. with her very dramatic facial expression and her extremely contagious laughter which tickles your funny bone right where it is!

she's god damn cute. i dont know if she'll bring more friends but for now, she's booked tickets for her and meisy to attend the concert! yeayness. :) and guys, if youve got the reservations to be made yet, contact me soon okay! order your tickets in bulk because if you dont, you wont get to sit together. :) okay ? good. xD

it's really depressing to see everyone so phsyced for their school admission except me. as traumatizing as it is, my friends still give me support all the way. but thats not exactly what i want right now. not that i dont appreciate. oh yes i do, like so soo much. but all i need now is a confirmation. i cant stand to wait this long anymore. it sucks. i hate waiting. i hate hate it so much. urgh..

i just realised ive got like so damn many pictures in friendster. and im deleting it one by one now. i think it's the amount of pictures i have that's causing friendster to lag. and when it lags, nothing goes right. really frustrating. grrr... anyways, heard some of the older songs being played on perfect 10 just now whilst i ironed my brother's school uniform. songs like "me, myself and i - beyonce knowles". one of her first singles when DC split for a year. and songs like "bring me to life - evanescence" which brought me to wonder how theyre doing now. (like as though im their old time buddy, aye. ahha)

well those songs used to be on the top of my playlists when it was such a big hit. i felt really good to hear all those songs because seems like each of them brought memories to me. just felt sort of relieved when i heard them again. like, as if my heart's thumping was into the mood. you kno wha' i mean ? ahaha. i guess im getting a little too deep in. :) but its just me. imma emokid at times ya kno.

we all are. :D

omg i just heard mom's voice saying something forget that bit.

by the way, im still not done deleting them pictures in this friendster. multi-tasking whilst blogging is no easy thing ta do. my train of thoughts get dirupted easily which at times explains my very bad sorting of ideas. naww.. im not that bad. :)

im anticipating! for the concert. and my pay. and my treat for abg ridzwan. and the little something im going to get from nur F for getting a job for him. nyahaha. okay, i was just joking at first. but well, he wanted to treat me. lol so i wont turn down! it's a bad thing to turn down good deal like this! :D:D

oh oh. ive caught date movie. and pink panther. well, i think ive said it somewhere. (because i kept repeating the lines from that movie and laughed my ass out). but i guess date movie was much more funnier. ..and erotic. no wonder it's rated NC 16. cool stuff. its more like a movie compilation. many many movies into one, which makes it funny because somehow they all link! and this movie, dont really have lines that tickle the funny bone and make us laugh. its more like those actions are the humour factors. i really loved it.

shows i wna catch:

1. Final Destination 3. (havent got the chance!)
2. DORM
3. Shaggy Dog
4. Big Momma House 2
5. Yours, Mine and Ours

and that's about it i guess. top 5, not in order. :) i hope ive got the cash cause im broke. well not to the end of my pocket, but im nicely broke-n. whatever that means.

well, sorry for the lack of updates the last nearly 10 days. havent exactly got the mood to blog you see. so, well.. til we meet again! :)

psst// attn all girls: Elle / U.R.S & inc are having floorstacks promotion sales on 23rd of March onwards at Isetan Orchard. if youre interested to buy, come on down! i'll be happy to serve you! :) toodles now!

love,
`Bee.

winter, summer, autumn.. and finally she's back.

okay, firstly just to ease my very disgusted and irritated soul, i want to say something. when you know someone, well you used to hate that someone. ..and scruntinize her, but now things are somehow "better" and the hatings are not going around anymore, (well not at least that i know of), your friend starts to get closer to you. because initially.. it was because of her that you scruntinize that someone. and when your friend gets closer to someone, and is, or maybe not, quite on good terms with that someone, you want to settle down along, too.

..okay you guys going in my rythm ? i hope so. let's still carry on.

but little that you know, that the way you "want to sortarf reconcile" with that someone, disgusts her (that someone, i mean). you always walk past her workplace with your friend (that you stood up for to go against that someone) and even tried to get a closer look. then suddenly, as if it was "fate" (eww..), you bumped into her and said, "eh.. i've seen you around. right? you seem familiar.. no? oh, i thought i've seen you around.. oh okay.." and it totally DISGUST that someone to the maximum. yes, m-a-x-i-m-u-m. EW EWW EWWW. *pukes* SPITS* EWWW.

yes.. that disgusted.

because.. she obviously KNOWS who that someone is, because she had already SAID SOME BAD THINGS ABOUT HER, and she dont have to act for that someone to see RIGHT THROUGH HER. ohmygod. holy shit. i didnt think that people can be SOO fucking hypocrite to the core. and they act as if it's nothing to them. oh fuck. this is getting on my nerves. ewwwww..

*breathe in.. out.. in.. out* -okay, that was for me and me alone okay. but to those readers who feel that ive "offended" you, come and settle it to me, one-on-one. :)

ahh.. never felt better. :D now i can blog with ease. so, let's do a little recap for the days that ive missed. hmm.. okay let me tell you busy-nosey-wanting-to-know-my-results people. i did fairly well. at least i thought i did. but it's to my ultimate dissapointment that i.. okay you know what ? just ask me in msn when im in the right mood, okay ? i dont want to talk about it. at least i dont want others to know. :)

so, bla bla bla.. my life was pretty unstable. not mad, nono. just very rocky. i was going through the lowest point of life and that was why i didnt blog. well i didnt want to over-express myself online, thinking that nobody reads my blog like i always do. but i thought this time, it had to be kept hush hush. even you asking me what my problem was in msn wont help. :D

anyways.. work was getting boring and boring every single day. maybe it's because they're waiting for today. well, im not supposed to tell you why. but i know when i go to work today, it's going to be HELL. im going to climb up and down, round and round. i tell you, i need to prepare my panadols and aspirin. i know im going to get headaches, lose my balance and stuffs. people walking through my legs. hahah. okay, not relevant.

but yes, it's going to be busy busy day for me. and for the next few days, i think. but i hope sales can really shoot up this time round. we're under performing for daily targeted sales. so up, up and away we go~ wheeee..

it was fadli's birthday yesterday. haha. and liyana's birthday on the 4th. and i forgot to wish her! how could i ? omg. im so sorry dear. i sms-ed you but you didnt reply. i hope you got my message. sorry sweetie pie! and to both of them, happy belated birthday. may all your dreams and wishes come true. :D loveyoupeople!

and my mom's birthday is coming soon. and ive planned to get her this pretty pretty Guess bag and a matching Guess wallet. which will cost me three quarters of her very much wanted, close-to-400-bucks-Bonia-bag. im proud of myself! but i dont know about mom. i really hope she likes it. because it's almost a bomb that im going to spend on. it's okay.. i hope she love it. no, she's going to love it. :D:D

anyways, met fathu after work last tuesday. and i saw that guy from my class with his girlfriend! wait, what's his name ? SHIT, i forgot his name. it's X.. something something. OH YES, i-xuen. xD and his girlfriend. i didnt really see her but i can see she's pretty petite and cute from the back. dont know bout the front. :D heh heh. but yeaps, now i know he's got a girlfriend, and not mr desperateguy89 already. HAHA! okay im so sorry i-xuen. i was kidding. :D:D

fathu said i appreciate his type of songs. but it's only a few songs that he likes inside my mp3 (which was his, initially. haha). because the rest of the songs in it are all "lagu memekak kan telinger" like he said. well too bad, boy.. it's my mp3 now. heheh. naw. kidding. so yeaps, been a long time since we met and yea.. crapped. he and his cute cold jokes. (ceh, irony..) and his silly faces. i find that being friends with him is always the best. because when we were together, things always go wrong half the time but when we havent get together, nothing could be compared to that friendship we had. (my little secret spilled.) haha. okay crap. :D

let's blog no more. i need to rush to the toilet and OUT of the house. im getting late and and.. i hope i'll blog soon. heh. :D okay then. bye for now!

oh yes, lela. i'll plan our swensen's date soon k! (psst: my pay's OUT! :D:D:D)

`Bee. :D

ive got so much to blog (:

i dont wish to put it all in a story base, so i'll randomly start this entry. i mean, whatever that comes to my mind first comes first, so yeah. ..i didnt exactly had to tell that, did i ? :-O (omg, lela-fluenced).

shrieks! the newcomer staff at my workplace SUCK. i thought i was the only one who found her so damn irritating. but the staffs over at Isetan handled worst. i've never seen a woman of her age so.. NAIVE. she asks the most obvious things in the whole wide world. i mean, dont she GET IT ? ..is she that DUMB?

okay, basic knowledge: in order to take a box of shoe (say to serve the customer), what would be the first thing you look for ? answer is, article number. even if she dont know, that's still forgivable. but the next most basic thing that she should know is the colour and the size, right ? ..she didnt.

a conversation between kak yanti and "that girl"..
yanti: okay, come i teach you how to take shoe.
her: okay, how ?
yanti: first, you look at the article number.
her: oh, this one ar ? (points to the art. no on the shoe).
yanti: yes. now, find. look at the shoe chart for guidance.
her: okay.. *finds*
(after sometime)..
her: ah there!
yanti: okay, she want size 38 so you must..
her: *interrupts*.. ah THERE 38! (pulls out box)
yanti: no, wait. see the article number..
her: eh ? oh.. must see article number one ar ?
yanti : ~~ ..yeeesssss.
her: ah there! 38, and art no. 7887! (pulls out box)
yanti: eh no, wait! see the colour also..
her: oh wrong ar.. must see colour also ar ?
yanti: !!!!!!~~~~ YYEEESSSSSS.
her: oh.. then dont have leh ?
yanti: then tell customer la!
her: later she scold how?
yanti: ~~~ just go and tell okay?
her: okay.. she scold i find you ar..
yanti: shut up and go.. (pissed)
-end-

can you imagine how kak yanti had to put up with her ? argh. irritating! im not going to talk about her anymore. she suck la. there's more la. ask me yourself if you want to know. eww..

anyways, went shopping with eileen and chermaine. (i only window shopped because my wallet's dried up) and seeing so many stuff there got me tempted. but nevertheless, i mananged to refrain any temptations and you guys should stand up for me. :D

forget it, bet your asses are so heavy, they are stuck to your chair. okay fine..

MOM TOLD ME.. okay im sorry for the caps, but... mom told me she wanted a BONIA bag (the latest one with cherry prints) for her birthday present.. and it's $357. *gulps. HALF my pay gone. but i wouldnt be so "wise" to get her that bag of course. i'll probably get her a Guess Bag which is waaaay cheaper, at least a hundred bucks cheaper.. or maybe something else which might suit to her liking. oh, her birthday's on 27th March by the way. quick, suggestions on my board please! thanks..

..and dad's birthday is on 24th April. and he told me a Macassain would be good. WOW. now where do i get those ? (macassain's are a pair of casual and durable footwear which are really comfy and expensive). maybe i'll get him the ones from Andre Valentino. i should be able to get it at around 150 bucks, max ? i hope so. will check them out soon!

with meyaa this sat! ..or maybe pre-window shopping with yong yao later today when we meet after work. so it'll be it then. meyaa for mummy's bag/present, and yong yao for dad's. xD

i heard i'll be getting my pay like between 7th to 10th of March. and im seriously trying to be as patient as i can be and anticipate with a dying soul. ..so drama sia, nurool. i mean, serious man, im getting broke. and window shopping is for those who seriously lack of the papers in the wallet.. which is ME. and yong yao.. and meyaa. and all those people who ran out of theirs as-soon-as-they-got-their-pay. :D

oh yes, PLEASE NOTE THIS FOLLOWING MESSAGE.

Unity Secondary School Band will be having their first concert, Resonace I, at National University of Singapore, on 8th of April 2006, 8pm.* Please come down and show your support for us as your presence is greatly appreciated. Tickets are selling at $10*. Please call/sms me for more enquiries. Your support is very important to us to ensure the success of our first ever Band Concert. Thank You.
*not confirmed yet.

so, please do support okay? i'll be acting as Christine for the Phantom Of The Opera Medley. so support me! :D hehehe. that's most probably la. but i hope so.. xD

erms.. do i have anything else to say before i go ? ..oh yes, to all those candidates waiting for their release of Poly/JC postings later at 8am today, i would like to wish you all the bestest of luck and may youre contented with whatever that you applied and get into. :D love, care and joy.

peace*
`Bee.

peeeeeves!!*

oh my god. does any of my blog readers is/are related to the bus companies ? ..TRANSITLINK especially. if you are, this is for YOU..

firstly, i am SO disgusted by the cleanliness of your buses. especially service number 302. THREE ZERO TWO/tiga sifar dua/san ling er/amadehinggavoo. seriously. the bus are all dusty and stuffy. not at all convenience for me, as a passenger. and the MOST disgusting thing is that, THERE ARE COCKROACHES in those bus! OH MY GOD! what could be more horrible than THAT ? ew ew ew ewwwk. im totally peeved my wits out. my ass out. oh, anything! just what are the drivers doing ? dont they realise how dirty the bus they're driving is ? and and.. there isnt just ONE or TWO roaches you know. THERE'RE HEAPS OF THEM!

a brief recount on what happened: i was sitting in the bus, all cranky and tired from a day's work. and i was on of the first in the line to que for the bus (i was in the interchange, you see) and as soon as i got the bus, i got myself a comfortable place to sit in for the rest of my ride home. and to my fucking disgust, i saw TWO bloody roaches crawling out of the window (rubber) pane. EWK. anyways, that's horror #1. there's more.

and to refrain from PUKING, i leaped myself to another seat. and by then, i was fucking conscious of the creepy crawlies that's surrounding me (and everyone else) in the bus. so i kept looking all arnd me to see if those two dickroaches are anywhere near me. and i looked everywhere else except the seat NEXT to me. and HORROR #2, there were THREE OF THEM! omg! family combo! i was sooo fucken freaked, i jumped out of my seat. i mean, they're ON the seat next to me! what do you expect ?! fuckkk. and i purposely got down the bus at yew tee mrt. oh noooo.

SO, TO ANY BUS-SIANS OUT THERE, please! DO SOMETHING!!!!! i hate roaches and i know they hate me too! (oh btw, i just stepped one in the bus just now. ewk! squashed*) please please, do something. I HATE COCKROACHES. ew.ew. ewwwwwwk. *pukes*

so, horror # 3 was when i walked home from yew tee mrt, a RAT (fat one) just ran across me, almost running OVER my feet. arghhhhh. shit. its fucking disgusting. fuck. shit. toot. i was phobea enough to have one fat-TER rat running across my feet at bukit batok la. i felt his weight, slugging across my damned feet. omg. it's utterly horrendous. ewk.

argh. and for the whole of today, im down with ultimate boredom. first, it was dee, then xiao tian. THEY QUIT THEIR JOB. and now ive got no friends to talk to. grrrr. bored LOR! and.. next it was a lonely lunch for me. then, the woman (at Sony Ericsson Gallery) made me go through the hassle of queing up to collect the repaired phone (putra's) but in the end ask me to come tomorrow. what the hell! then the rest of the day was fucking mundane la.

on the way home, my mp3 has no BATT. the FM batt i had, DIED too. then it was my PHONE. oh my gosh. unlucky me. IM SOOOOOOO....

...nevermind, shove all those ugly/fugly/irritating/horrendous thoughts aside. i just felt like, people arent appreciating what they have until they lost it. yes. it always happen, doesnt it ? it's always the case. and i guess it takes a lot out of oneself to really shove the thoughts away. more like the urge to amend what's broken and left abandoned the last time it shattered. im not saying that i miss my ex-boyfriend or something. but well, being so used to having a boyfriend the last time, i guess im just used to having a confider in me.

and now that im single, i find that times when im alone, really is fatal. i mean, boredom used to be my foe. but now, things are just so different without someone whom you once gave your promise to, (a boyfriend, in this case). and lonliness cuts deep within. sometimes, it's so dreadful that you just cant help feeling really inferior when you see couples together. well i guess its normal. the sorrow will just go away once your boredom is killed.

well what im trying to say is that, feelings are for sure something we cant hide. but doesnt mean that we feel something that we know we cant explain, it means that we're despos or feeling all remorseful for what had happened in the past. well i guess time doesnt heal all wounds that well, as the saying goes, afterall. well, it did say that time will heal all wounds. but what it didnt say was time would heal all wounds thoroughly. bits and pieces will still remain. ..and surprisingly, those are the ones that hurt.

`Bee.

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TAG REPLIES: (i know i always ignore you taggers. but here's your reply! im really really sorry! :D)

fyra: hey babe! im doing good. :D how about you ? i miss you girl. catch ya soon alright. loveloves!~ xD
a soul: hey, the choice i made was not really wisely chosen. but i hope it'll somehow bring me somewhere. ahaha. thank you man. :D
riah: hey darling, thank you! im proud of myself too. hahaha. love you and catch ya soon!! mwacks! <3!
yul: hey! me ? hot ? mampos. hahaha.
TIAN: DONT HATE ME CAUSE YOU AINT ME. hahaha. nawh, i still like your phone la. so i think i still gna buy it lor. BLUEK! anyways, i miss you girl. :( boo hoo..
lela: helo makcik! aku rindu sama kau. swensens bile ar ? haha. (padehal aku yg blanje). ape ape, hantarkan sms kepada ku iyer.. slamat!
naQ: HOT ? haha. what's with YOU PPLE! lol nawh. u look prettier than me! BOO. hahah. love you. SEE YOU SOON TOO! missyou la ngongs. :D
(mampos byk siak tag aku)
meyaa: well you seldom update your blog what. so i kindar didnt read your blog la. sorry laaaaaaaa. haha. but i know you bought cheap bags! hahah ? lol okay. LOVE YOU STILL!
siti (ah-ti!): I MISS YOU LA MAK NENEK. see you soon in band k. if im coming la. hehe. more gossips coming! and yeaps, will link you soon. xD
rUL (cousin darl!): i miss you too asshole! u plan an outing for us la! nenepok.
mar: lol i'll link you soon. :D
dee*: HAHAHA! she havent seen my short hair right ? lol! ur mama arh. haha. tell her my hair's growing. so i wont freak the wits out of her when i go over to your place sometime. HAHA. xD anyways, I MISS YOU! :(
FiR: AHHHH. finally :D heheh. tag more ar! must wait no matter how long my blog loads. hehe. PEACE!

okay im done. peace.