im.. im.. a NURSE!

hahahahahahhahahahahah!!!

..and i still cant believe it. but i've got company! there's lela, ema, carisa, xiu ling.. and hahah i dont know who else. im not super happy because i'm finally becoming a nurse, it's just that i finally got into a school! well in case all of you out there have been wanting to know, i didnt manage to get into a school during the JAE admission exercise. MOE posted me to nowhere which led me to super life disruption after that.

well, i was heartwrenched. i mean, hey.. where's my life going ? i wasnt back on track and things were toppling down like nobody's business. i went through a lot actually. i get sensative over the slightest things but no one noticed, thankfully. it was a hard phase i had to go through. i became impatient at times because im so farking anxious. we're talking about a future here, hello!

so then, i got really pissed sometimes when people kept asking me which school i was going and sorts. and i mean, i got REALLY goddamned pissed. i dont know why i cant control myself ever since this happened. i wasnt being myself totally. i kept thinking and pondering where i should go had i really not a chance to be in any school pursuing any course..

i even thought of working all my life! ..and that'd be such a dramatic waste. because knowing me, im not exactly like my mother. i dont work all out to get the things that i really want. mother told me to appeal and keep on appealing (like she did to get me into Unity when we moved house last two years because i hated Regent so damn much. and i cant possibly go into Kranji right ? it's so far!) until i get somewhere. yes, i am strong willed. but im not persistent. ironic as it seems, i always prefer to think of alternative and go aimlessly with whatever appealing i did which i know i can never get.

i mean, it's realistic right ? we've got to be practical in this world. this fast changing world. a world which is soooo modern that... okay, forget it. so you see, my life was a trauma to carry on before i got to know the results that im going to be a nurse. (HAHHAAHAHHAHA!! laugh with me, damnit) and somehow, i seem to understand why a lot of people are against my wanting to go into the Media line.

people like, mother, father, abg wan, fadli, maybe dee ? i dont know. but i know a lot la. and now i seem to be thankful and so very thankful that im not in the media line, having met the COP or not. :) im starting a new life now. in a totally different world. a different concept. no more cameras and pretty make-ups. it's all about what's life really brings. the practicality of life. the hardship. the suffer. and the pity. i got to be versatile.. if a good actress i can be, a good NURSE i'll be too! (hahahAHhAHahaHha!! that still tickles me bad. hahaHAHA!!)

im sorry guys but the fact that im a nurse. the thought, i mean. it's so funny. i cant imagine myself pushing the medicine cart here and there with my nurse dress, which knowing me, would be very short (haha), and serving all the sickly patients their medicines. my personal msg in MSN says : hi mr so-and-so, here's your medicine. *bends down* oops, not that one. :D

and people are telling me the patients are going to get a sexy nurse. more like erotic! hahaha. hey! dont blame me. lela made me a "horny witch" that was meant to be a character in her supposed-to-be-novel-that-she-wanted-to-write-but-i-dont-know-what-happened-to-it. perfect! imma hot, sassy and sexy nurse. i so cant wait for the enrolement package to come. and i'll be ready for the checkup! not that im looking forward to it. but its more like i want to get over and done with it. :D

then i can carry on and be the sexy nurse! hahaha.

ohh ohh! good news is that, if i sign the bond contract with a hospital (from the enrolement package), i'll get to have 850bucks every month as salary! WOO HOO! i dont have to work! and that so soooo rock you know. even though i know things are going to be expensive, it still doesnt hurt to use a little and do some retail therapy right ? hey, patients can be pain in the ass too, you know!

but during attachments, we'll tend to get bullied. you know, freshie nurses always tend to being ordered around and doing all those shitty work. ahh.. i get them all the time. even at home and im sure i can get used to it. :) especially with lela around! ..i hope. :D

air 0q39 e219o47vq23 yaw9Y! )(Wye0wa9yr(! ..sorry, my alarm clock just beeped. freaked me out there. gosh. so much for being a nurse. how can i when a puny alarm signal scares me off! hahaha. but it's good. all's good. the alarm signal was to tell me to get a shower and get ready for work!

yes, im working today. and the floorstacks sales are coming! i dont know why im so happy about that. haha. but, they're coming! it's going to be fun working in the promotion area. hahaha. cool. :D

okay okay, imma sign out now, aight ? take care!!

imma freaken nUrSeEEe!!!!! ahaHAHhaHAhahhAHahahhaHAhhahHAhaha!! :D

`NURSE bee. :D