sheer madness..

im at the computer lab again.
it's so boring. rahh :(
i hate it when there's so many breaks
in between the lectures/tutorials.
such a bad start to the weekends.
-pouts*


but it's okay i guess.
-shrugs-
school's alright so far..
from where things are now, lectures
are getting more and more boring.
like, SERIOUSLY.
i tend to sleep in lectures and it's bad!
if not sleeping, i'll be doing my crossword puzzle.
and kakak will go like, "ah there she's doing it again.."
yadaa yadaa yadaa.


hoho. (:
but for one thing i know is that, nro6o4 rocks!
and it swear it's true. yipeee!
especially juremy.. oh man, he's the icon now.
hahahaha..


somehow im glad this is happening.
because i think it's true..
i'm faaallliiinnnggg...!!
and dont help me please..
im starting to miss him.
please tell me this is happening!


so anyways.. i had so much fun during
clinicals yesterday! HAHA.
the whole class was practically laughing
their asses off, along with joelle! (:
there was so many things that happened.
haha. i dont think it'll be funny anymore
if i were to type it in here.. so i'll just let it be.


and i just realised that im so lucky to
have joelle as my clinical lecturer.
or should i say, very lucky?
because i heard from other people that
they dread clinicals and whatnots.
oh man, my clinicals rocks! (:


it was bed-bathing/showering today.
and i was the patient. hoho.
sat in the commode chair (the one which has a toilet bowl shape)
and i hope it wasnt used before.. eww.
but anyways, it was fun man..
the feeling of being pushed around.
hahaha. but i dont wna be a handicapped!
choyyy...


argh im feeling so restless.. like, really.. :(


im having an hr break right now.
and a tutorial after this.
then ANOTHER break (wtf, right?)
and then lecture. it's sick la..
with all the breaks.
so damn lame, i tell you.


anyways, met sharul again yesterday.
haha, never got sick, aye?
i think so too! lol.
but initially he didnt want to meet me
because he said he didnt want to make me wait.
that's what he said. i dont know la..
but he still met me of course. haha.
tell me, who can resist me? im hot! ure not! (:


we walked around causeway point
because i wanted to eat actually..
(which we didnt in the end)
but i brought him to 77th Street first.
..to show him the dress that fana and i saw
a few days before, when we were there.
it was nice, man. seriously pretty.. (:
but i cant find a situation or a time to wear it.
honestly, no! omg.
dont ever imagine me wearing skirt okay.
it's not me. SO not me.


c'mon, the last time was when i was out with dee!
and that was because i thought she was wearing
a skirt which she always does!
but i was tricked because she thought i was wearing
a jeans like i always do. hah!
but oh wells, im not/never/wont ever wear a skirt to sch!
i dont know? maybe not now.
please dont force me, whoever you are..


hohoho.. i dont want to be that feminine yet. hehh (:
met lela just now. hee!
well actually i bumped into her.
haha. i miss her actually.. been looking for a time
to chill with her again, but im so stuffed with things.
things which i dont know what and which,
but i still seem so busy!
geee..


lela, if youre reading this, HOLLA ME okay!?
mwacks, miss you lelaGUNDOO. (:


and to meyaa:
i never felt so scared to tell you a secret.
i never felt so shy and afraid to open up to you.
i never felt so guilty doing/telling something to you.
but i dont know why last night was such a burden.
it was so difficult blurting out words to you like i always do.
it was so shitty to feel the feeling i felt when i tried to tell you.
yet it was so painful to keep it all from you.

im sorry if i kept you in the dark.
im sorry if i made you cry and hurt your heart.
i didnt mean to do that.
i didnt see this coming.
im sorry.. if i ever break your heart.
though i know you've convinced me time and time again
that it's really alright and okay,
you know i'll never take in those words knowing you.

i dont know what i'll (have to) do.
i dont know why im even writing this.
or maybe i do, i think it was my phobea.
and you know which was it.
i dont want it to happen to us.
no, never.. even if it means letting go.
and i'll never blame you.. much least, hate you.
please tell me you're fine and mean it, okay?

cause i love you my sis, and i will always do.
i promise that i'll never ever feel this scared to
tell you a secret ever again..
so that between us, there's nothing that's hidden.
i love you, and will always do..
mwacks. (:


and to the rest of the people and some special ones,
i love you, too. <3!


`Bee. imissyou*