it was a funky happy day yesterday. (: though there wasnt frisbee training, it was still crazy! wait, let me recall. it's wednesday yesterday and ohh, school started at 11am. as usual, thanks to my late nights and my insomia, i couldn't sleep which resulted me to wake up late. PFFT.


i seriously dont know what's wrong with me, too!


school was alright, i guess. it was normal, very blunt anyways. but it was perky towards the end of school. hahahaha, nikki and i had were chilling together at macs..(which, speaking of it, i felt so bloody guilty la! ..i'll get back to that).. and we're laughing and laughing like there's no tmrw. we talked about anything and almost everything and there's this weird cleaner, he just sardinely LOOKED at my cellphone i showed it to nikki. he's fucking weird! ..yes, an understatement.


so, as i was saying. i felt so guilty! when it comes to food, like all the time. and uncle rahim, vendor of the malay stall at north canteen kept giving me a lot of food everytime i ordered. okay, i know youre my dad's friend but please, dont make me overeat! i feel so guilty. so yesterday, i ate all three meals in one day! breakfast, lunch and dinner. i never ate three meals a day ever, and yesterday, thanks to mom, i broke my virgin record. pfft.


but it's okay. NO! it's not okay. there's no frisbee and that means no running, training, working out OR oogling at hawt guys. hohoho! i declare myself guilty for doing so man, okay i'm really guilty! i just realised frisbee has a lot of cute guys. oooh, i like like love love it! c(=


and im sure nikki and carisa might agree? hahaha. i dont know about carisa, but nikki.. heh heh. okay la. maybe it's only me? hahaha. I JUST FIND THEM SO CUTEE.. wheee.


if youre going to purposely piss me off, youre succeeding. happy? i just hate it when it gets colder and colder talking to you. if you dont like talking to me, just tell me so. i hate it when you play hot and cold with me. one minute youre okay with me, the next you just cant be bothered. what do you think i am? a robot with no feelings? thanks. period.


im in the computer lab now, by the way. and oh my gosh, it's so quiet in here that my earphones (attached to the pc) seems to be blasting!! with avenged sevenfold playing on the player and my depressment mood sinking in, it just makes me feel so stupidly emo and retard. eeeeks!


argh, ive been singing bella luna since day 1 when i got it from who? i dont know. and i keep singing and singing that song til i literally SIGHED to a halt. i practically sigh so hard, to stop singing. "bella luna.. my beautiful beautiful moon, how you swoon me like no other.. SIGHHH" yes, like that. it's so frustrating to be singing such a beautiful song which has so much emotion and next, youre thinking and reminiscing all the fun times you had with the person related closely to that song.


it's so frustrating, isn't it? too much memories, too little time. i'm practically flooded with memories and tears every night. thinking of how nice the feeling was while it lasted and now, how i should've treasured every moment of it. it's just sooooo... urgh.


im so sick of crying already.
im so sick of thinking,
im so sick of telling myself it's over.
im so sick of constantly putting up a fake front,
and laugh at silly little jokes when i dont even listen to it.
i hate to be so fake and plastic.
i hate it to feel what im feeling!


oh bella bella, please.. bella you beautiful luna.. oh bella do what you do..


SEE WHAT I MEAN? jason mraz! why are your songs so melancholicly beautiful? tsk.



oh, and im currently hooked on 5 other songs besides bella luna.
1. niki fm - hawthorne heights.
2. unholy confessions - avenged sevenfold
3. photograph - nickelback
4. the lonliness - babyface
5. my only one - plain white t's



okay, that was so random.





i guess i nda break. a time-out.


oh btw, i saw a body (dead) during bio practical just now. IT'S FREEZING COLD IN THERE. and the stench smell is unbearable. the way my lecturer held it's arms (chopped off, btw) and used the thongs to clip on the blood vessels and arteries is soooo.. eeky. my classmate cried due to shock. oh, it was so disgusting? i dont know if that's the right word even. it's just so poor thing la. but i feel so scared? ohh, that's bad.


but the experience rocked. (:




okay, time's up. 12.53pm. ive got a class at 1pm!
till next time.
`Bee.