woke up with my cheeks wet,
the tears slowly dripping down the smooth curves of my face.
never thought the moment before i opened my eyes
to see the daylight had been one hell of a dream,
the one that's so surreal,
so.. seemingly true.


although i was scared, and didnt want to believe the dream i had, i still had that sense of wanting to close my eyes again, picturing the exact same episode that caused my tears to roll down, just like when i woke up this morning. i could feel the pain, the hurt, the sorrow.. and the distance. i dont know what this dream is trying to tell or signal to me. maybe it's just another dream. another paranoid dream.

or is it?


it's painful to think of it, but the more i dont want to think of it, the more it all makes sense. i just wished i could turn back time and edit the dream before it was played when im asleep, like it was some movie im creating that has some secret internal message to be relayed to. horrible..


so, my day went pretty well. met nurul, shahina, hanz, luqman, haris and so many other people at the wedding just now. cool and nice to see them again. but i felt pretty awkward. hah, i dont know why. it's been too long, perhaps? yes, too long.


i shan't elaborate much on that. and i saw meisy too! at the yew tee makan carnival that i went right after attending the wedding at woodlands. it was pretty alright. though i couldn't be bothered. i kept wanting to go home because my work is not done! but i ended up reading my novel there anyways. hah. book-hooked. :)


oh, any meisy asked me if i wanted to take a picture but i declined her blantly. im sorry, meisy! i was just not in the mood to take any pictures. i was tired, and sorts. but it really was nice seeing you again! (:

..oh, saw eliza too. and, uhm.. another ex-unitian there. oh, and this group of guys. okay, forget it. i saw alot of people. c'mon, it's a carnival! ..pfft.


i wonder how youre doing. do you wonder about me, too?

`Bee.