just when i thought i haven't missed you enough,
i told myself i should stop dreaming about you.
stubborn as i am, i kept waiting..
waiting for a chance that came and went which i never knew.
days and night flew by,
all i could think was you.
i told myself, im still loving you.
but i dont think you do.
damn boy i cannot ever imagine
losing you so fast.
in just 9 minutes,
things have became a past.
i know i was wrong. i know i was too late.
but damn i love you, and i cant hide no more.
how i long for your presence,
how i wish you were here.
but no, you were drifted away..
far from my clutches, and closer to my fears.
we sorted things out.
but i need time.
to let myself get back together,
for im a broken dime.
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i can't sleep tonight. not surprised why, though. despite feeling so tired and all swelled up, i still cant put my mind at ease. i feel so uptight, i feel so numbed. i just cant get this feeling out.
i wish i could do something to make myself feel better. oh how i hate feeling like this. brrr. and this whole entry is pointless, too.
im sorry but i have to let myself out. i cant go on having sleepless nights.
damn i feel so hurt.
i feel so broken.
i know i stil have you. but it's a different chapter altogether.
i wish i hadnt known you.
i really really feel terrible.
`Bee
& i cant stop crying..
