okay so first day of attachment was not bad. i was pretty excited for work actually, but i dont know why i lost almost quite all of my enthusiasm.

was it the quiet ward?
was it the different setting?
was it the people?

i dont know. but it was different. the patients, the staffs, the colleagues. thou it was pretty fun but i guess we're all tired & feeling lazypokey. hahaha, wake up late somemore people! now waking up at 4.15am everyday for morning shifts just kills.

i dont know how i am to wake up if it wasnt for granny who stayed over since Saturday. i couldnt sleep the whole of last night not knowing why & i spent my time thinking about some stuffs.

& i came to a conclusion that why should i let go if i can still go on? i mean, im not holding on to anything but why let go when you can still go on? it's like youre happy with life as it is, & even though things change, you can still try to accept it and go on.

..without having to go through the pain of forgetting somebody. which sucks to the core of the pit of the world of the sun of the planets of the universe..

YEAH, NONSENSE.

oh by the way, check this out.

my first picture in 2007. (:

..with lelaa.

aww! haha. it was her new camera, hence the SO MUCH BETTER QUALITY than her ancient Nokia 6610i. but she la, so slenge dont know how to use the phone. then end up rejecting every single call i made to her.

tsk. saket hati seh, lelaa.

anyways, Ward 47 is a Surgical Orthopaedic / General Surgery Ward. all the things dealing with musculoskeletal system will be taken care of in this ward. well, almost all la. so yeah, nothing new for me though, except to practice the dressing.

scary man when i see the real dressing. this guy (quite good looking though, like some Taiwanese rockstar) had a LONG staples on his abdomen. kinda freaky you know but seeing the Senior Staff Nurse do her thing so calm & relaxed, i freaked out even more.

..just thinking how i was going to look like doing cleaning of dressing alone.

so then my team was in the charge of SN (Staff Nurse) Meng. she's quite a busy woman from what i see, so talking her is a burden. & catching her attention alone is a disaster. okay not so terrible la but you get what i mean.

i had to go like "SN Meng.. SN Meng.." but i was obviously ignored because her calls were more important & it was frustrating because i had something important to ask her, too man. heyy, at least make me feel important too la, first day of work tauu.

so i gave up after calling her name three times. she ignored me anyways, so i went like, "SN Meng.. SN Meng.. SN Meng.. alamak, MENGGGGGGaruut ah!" - which meant, alamak, CRAP AH!" in malay. hahaha.. & it jives because there was a MENG- in front of it.

LOL, Siti & i couldnt stop laughing.

other than that silly joke, working was quite boring too because most of my patients were quiet or couldnt talk. that's pretty sad because back in Ward 44, my patients were the most talkative & it was fun disturbing them, entertaining ourselves with their cute expressions.

oh wells. i could use some getting used to in Ward 47 i guess. (: think positive, NUROOL! hahahahah. i kept saying BE PESSIMISTIC instead of OPTIMISTIC & got myself all clumsy.

twice already sia. haha.

okay world, my eyes are killing me.

GOODNIGHT,
- nurool(:

i have you in me, & i dont mind
anything else. (: